Struggling.

2009-11-01T21:48:00.002+08:00

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1n

2009-11-01T20:41:00.002+08:00

WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU?
AM I YOUR DOG? AM I YOUR SON?
NO.
i decide where i want to go.
i decide the friends i make.
i know what i'm doing. I'M NOT AS ROTTEN AS YOU THINK I AM.
just because i pierced my fucking ear, failed a couple of exams, and look like some rotten apple doesn't mean i'm beyond redemption.
'if you have been given freedom to go out, you must abhor to the set curfew.'
SCREW YOUR CURFEW.
that isn't freedom, that's prison.
if i go to some void deck to slack, shake my legs at some coffeeshop or hang out with smokers, you say i'm behaving like an ahbeng.
if i go to some chalet with guys and girls, you think i'm gonna have fuck up every girl in the place.
if i don't go back by my- no, YOUR designated curfew, it means i'm hanging around people with negative influences.
WHATS THE PROBLEM WITH YOU.

i need some time to cool down.
sigh.
went to e hub w kts just now.
didn't manage to watch anything cause tickets for my sister's keeper were sold out.
all the other shows were too late. for me, that is.
for more info check out my rant up top.
z.
school tomorrow. and meeting with mr ee before that, for CLB.
anyone wants breakfast tmr?

and to whoever's spamming at my cbox.
i'm not affected whatsoever by your comments.
the only thing i hate you for is making me waste time deleting the tags.
do me a favour. after you've finished hating on me, hack into my cbox account and delete your own tags.
and please. you're fucking boring.
make your hate tags more interesting. maybe then i won't delete them.

GREAT DAY OUT HOMIES.

2009-10-31T19:14:00.003+08:00

you're.. different. somehow.
i miss the old you.
wait, i take that back.
you've not changed..
i've just taken off my mask to show the coward beneath the skin.

WOO I'M BACK HAHA.
i frgot where i stopped last. so i'll start from wednesday!
body exhibition at science centre. boring as heck.
lots of bones and muscles, but none of them actually moved. DUH.
looks so fake, but they're real bodies. THEY'RE REALLY BRAVE TO DEDICATE THEIR BODIES THAT WAY LOL.
night, had a really big arguement with mum.
I'M STILL FREAKING PISSED. but nevermind.

thursday, went to ECP.
met up w/ weilun early in the morning to get the waterbombs.
was late by a bit. ecp was boring. no time to do anything.
headed over to white sands myself because nobody else wanted to go with me. CRAP MAN.
afterwards, tianshen's house. his girlf was over there so it was kinda awkard.
THEN THEY COME MY HOUSE FOR DOTA.
waste electricity only. HAHAHAHA.
went back to tianshen's house at midnight to help him download L4D. noobshit, don't even know torrent.
argued with mum again when i got back.
_l_

friday, HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRENNA.
got back report books, then went to play area to find axel, xiaopang & irene.
lunch, home, then MRT STATION.
was supposed to meet dean at tampines MRT but i was late.
& my mum allowed me to ton! cause i'm hopeless. haha.
so anyw, they didn't get their shades, i didn't look for my wallet and kfc was full of noisy angmohs.
AND, AXEL AND IRENE WERE SHOUTING 'RIDE ME LIKE A HORSE' OPPOSITE CINELEISURE. HAHA!
axel & i practised our accents a bit. HAHA!
xiaopang went home & the rest of us headed to axel's place.
raining like wtf. AND I CAN'T FIND MY UMBRELLA NOW LOL. DAMN!
had 'dinner' around 11, prata and satay!
then drew all over our faces with some pink marker, to celebrate the halloween mood. (and axel's phone got inked HAHAHAHA)
conked out at around 3am. PLAYED NEOPETS TO STAY AWAKE LOL.
went home at 2pm today. very tired, sweaty and sticky haha. BUT VERY FUN CAN.
pics will be up once i get them. see ya (:

27th october 2009

2009-10-27T17:03:00.002+08:00

every step that i make is another mistake.

my results suck!

(OVERALL)
EL- 67
sucks for me. i was expecting an a2 or sth. too complacent?

MATHS- 66
not bad, but not good by any stretch of the imagination.

A MATHS- 55
considering my failing rate.. this is quite good.

MT- 38
i'm not dropping. i'll work to the bone.

HUMANITIES- 65
social studies pull me down -.-

PHYSICS- 45
kns i know. i have this feeling that mr goh's looking down on me. i'll show him.

CHEMISTRY- 54
this isn't too bad either. look at the comment for a maths.

i think i'm falling sick. blocked and runny nose; can hardly sleep at night. you know how torturous it is to be breathing through your mouth for 6 hours straight?

body exhibition at science centre tmr.
not very enthusiastic about going. should i skip?

i've got some plans for the holidays (finally!).
dance class? chalets? and a ton of school remedials?
and maybe a job or sth. if i can find the time.
my moneybox is draining itself empty.

had a GREAT chat w/ brenna last night. much thanks!
&axel, cheer up man. you ain't gonna drop to NA.

going for a short nap.
see ya everyone.
hope you live in a better world than me.

dead to the bone

2009-10-24T10:57:00.004+08:00

i've grown up.

after skipping training for so long, i went back ytd.
now my whole body is sore. no stamina alr -.-

mr goh told us this story.
i've heard it a million times; you probably have too. but here it is anyw.

a caterpillar starts as an egg. it hatches, then eats and eats.
it then forms a cocoon around itself and begins to metamorphasise.
when it's about to emerge, the butterfly struggles to get out.
if you cut the cocoon to help the butterfly to get out, blood won't be forced into its wings.
it will never be able to fly.
in other words, you have killed the insect.

not word for word, duh.
but the meaning is there.
if he were to drop us to combined, we will survive, but never be able to soar.
to motivate anyone reading this post, i've fashioned another story.

a hardworking ant and a lazy ant were caught in a web.
since the spider was out foraging, they had a small window of time to escape.
the hardworking ant began gnawing on the web, whilst the lazy one sat there waiting for rain to break the web.
the hardworking one bit for a long time without any visible progress. the lazy one said 'why bother working so hard? the spider won't be back for a long time and it looks like it's going to rain.'
the hardworking ant replied 'i'd rather choose my own route than go where life take me.'
the lazy one said 'ah, suit yourself.'
an hour passed, and the hardworking ant managed to snap through the web. he said to the lazy ant 'i'd save you, but i don't want to risk getting caught again.'
the lazy ant laughed. 'you'd get caught by the spider! have fun!'
in two minutes the hardworking ant reached his nest.
the lazy ant just hoped. to his delight, it began raining.
sure enough, he broke free just as the spider was returning to its shelter.
he laughed, and a raindrop fell directly on to him.
the ant was stuck, and was eaten by the spider.

we can work. or we can hope.
working might not always help, but it prepares us for any opportunities.
hoping might get us where we want. but it won't get us out.

i'm not as good a writer as i want to be.
but all the same, i hope this helped readers somehow.

ta.

post- exam sian.

2009-10-23T17:05:00.002+08:00

butterflies

hey guys (:

school was a drag today.
physics did worse than i expected, i don't even know where i went wrong.
english was.. good, but not up to my expectations. no, lower by a lot.
maths wasn't that sucky, though still not good enough.

gotta write an essay for mr goh later.
on how much i value success.

oh, and hey anonymous.
i've banned you and all your sad alter-egos from my cbox. cool huh.
i'm not gonna dedicate a long post to a loser like you, so HAHA.
what you gonna do now? hmm?

21st october 2009

2009-10-21T17:41:00.001+08:00

one foot in hell and the other in wonderland.

as i look back on this incredible year,

2009-10-21T00:50:00.004+08:00

childlike dreams

it seems as though only yesterday when i'd been sitting for my PSLE papers.
only hours ago when i'd entered east view for the first time.
a few minutes when i walked into 305.
and now, the big O's are almost upon us again.
time really flies.

in a few more years, it's over to NS, then work, and eventually, i'll die.
makes you wonder what life is about, doesn't it.

anyway, a maths wasn't that easy for me.
as expected, my killer subject was TRIGONOMETRY.
not only that, but i didn't know how to draw the damn graph.
cause i've been revising all along on logarithm graphs.
speaking of which, i left one question out. _l_

gotta clean up my house again. messy like wtf.
ta.

tired

2009-10-19T12:37:00.002+08:00

if only you knew.

freaking tired. and my whole body's sore.
bit of a sad case, 4 hours at mac and completed a total of 4+ stupid questions.
but i'm proud of how far my logarithms have progressed (:
though i still suck at modulus graphs, trigo graphs and trigo.
esp proving. sucks sucks sucks.

reached home around 11 last night?
had this creepy feeling that somebody's following me home.
& some sleeping cat woke up and ran away when i passed it. _l_

i'm feeling very sian-ed over the coming holidays.
there's nothing to do. i'd rather be in school.

A MATHS!

2009-10-17T22:21:00.004+08:00

you just completely changed your story on me

the holiday mood is slipping up onto me even before the exams are over.
which right now, i have no idea if it's good or bad.
like, have two more papers to sit before before i can really kick back and loosen up.
shit sia. why can't they just give the fucking papers on friday and get it all done and over with?
then monday deepavali, must wait until tuesday. WALAO EH.
STILL GOT TWO DAYS TO ENJOY, WHERE WILL HAVE MOOD TO STUDY!

went studyyyyying today.
was supposed to meet up with weilun at 11am, but was late by 5min.
谁知道, he just woke up.
solo for one hour before he reached, then TOTALLY NO MOOD STUDY. HAHA
went to safra for bowling & pool, then got a lot of aizaiwtf people from temasek poly team beside us.
paiseh only lol
went for l4d at tampines stadium then back to 201 mac at 6+ to find other people from 305.
stay there for about 3 hours then HOME.

ABC About You Questions:
A - AVAILABLE : yup (:
B - BIRTHDAY : 17.4.94
C - CRUSHING ON : oh you would like to know wouldn't you
D - DRINK YOU LAST HAD : water lol
E - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO : i don't know!
F - FAVORITE SONG : got too many favourites to count.
G - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS : bears, cause i HATE worms.
H - HOMETOWN : Pasir Ris
I - IN LOVE WITH : NI HUAN LO
J - JUGGLE : NI HUAN LO
K - KILLED SOMEONE : NI HUAN LO
L - LONGEST CAR RIDE : NI HUAN LO
M - MILKSHAKE FLAVOR : banana woohoo
N - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS : 1
O - ONE WISH : NI HUAN- i mean, um. i don't know.
P - PERSON YOU CALLED LAST : weilun
R - REASON TO SMILE : because i want to. NI HUAN LO?
S - SONG YOU LAST HEARD : 但求全 lol
T - TIME YOU WOKE UP : today? 4am. then at 6. then 7 again. then 9.
U - UNDERWEAR COLOR/PATTERN: NI HUAN LO.
V - VEGETABLE(S) : fuck you
W - WORST HABIT : biting my lips when i'm thinking. mouth's full of ulcers now.
X - X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD : one?
Y – YOYOS ARE : a thing of the past.
Z - ZODIAC SIGN : ARIES. the sexiest you can get :D

Random Questions About You:
Spell your name without vowels : nchls (sounds like some school lol)
What color do you wear most? : black, white, and um. thats pretty much it.
Least favorite color? : brown & dark green.
What are you listening to? : nothing
Are you happy with your life right now? : wish it was a bit more exciting.
What is your favorite class in school? : if PE was a subject? hmm maths.
When do you start back at school/college? : next year probably.
Are you outgoing? : yup! :D
Favorite pair of shoes? : by nike one.
Where do you wish you were right now? : at some chiobu's house. LOL

THE CANS:
Can you dance? : going to learn, haha!
Can you tie a cherry stem with your mouth? : get me a cherry and i'll try.
Can you whistle? : yup
Write with both hands? : heck no. can you?
Walk with your toes curled? : duh

THE DO'S:
Do you believe there is life on other planets? : YES.
Do you believe in miracles? : happened to me once.
Do you believe in magic? : yes.
Love at first sight? : <3>
Do you believe in Santa? : the fat person who drops down chimneys? no.
Do you know how to swim? : YES.
Do you like roller coasters? : PWNZ. thriller rides are my kind of thing.
Do you think you could handle the stuff they eat on those reality shows? : like, coconuts? yes. worms and other insects, no.

THE HAVES: Have you ever been on a plane? : duh. kunming!
Have you ever asked someone out? : of course la. unless you mean like, on a date. then no.
Have you ever been asked out by someone? : read answer for above question.
Have you ever been to the ocean? : my favourite getaway
Have you ever painted your nails? : i'm a guy, man.

THE WHATS: What is the temperature outside? : 30?
What radio station do you listen to? : 98.7fm <3>
What was the last restaurant you ate at? : macdonalds lol
What was the last thing you bought? : KIKAPO (sp?)
What was the last thing on TV you watched? : the most extreme
THE WHOS: Who was the last person you IM'd? : i don't IM.
Who was the last person you took a picture of? : i can't remember. hold on.. xiaopang.
Who was the last person you said I love you to? : to be honest, i've never said it before. sad right.

CRYING SECTION:
Ever really cried your heart out? : yes. not literally, but yes.
Ever cried yourself to sleep? : yes
Ever cried on your friend's shoulder? : no. that's pathetic.
Ever cried over the opposite sex? : NI HUAN LO.
Do you cry when you get an injury? : nope. it takes a lot to injure me that bad.
Do certain songs make you cry? : nope.

HAPPY SECTION.
Are you a happy person? : i think so
What can make you happy? : lots of stuff. i'm easily pleased.
Do you wish you were happier? : yes!
Can music make you happy? : yup!

LOVE SECTION.
How many times have you had your heart broken? : i don't know. i don't really think about last time the stuff. lol
Have you ever loved someone so much that you'd die for them? : ain't that what love is about?

What is your current hair color? : bronze/ black
Current piercings? : One.
Have any tattoos? : nope
Eye color? : black. the corners of my eyes are dark green, if you look close enough.

IN A BOY/GIRL:
Favorite eye color : brown~
Short or long hair : long~
Height : somewhere in between? 165's a nice number.
Best clothing : nothing. LOL! nah, anything's great.

HAVE YOU EVER
Been to jail : In GTA, haha! (copy JH)
Mooned someone : wait long long
Laughed so hard you cried : yup!
Cried in school : no. the most i did was tear up a little.
Thrown up in a store : nope
Done something really stupid that you still laugh at today : yes (:
Gone skinny dipping : nope

THIS OR THAT
Pepsi or Coke : pepsi
McDonald's or Burger King : mac
Single or Group Dates : i don't know lol
Chocolate or Vanilla : chocolate!
Strawberries or Blueberries : blueberries lol
Meat or Veggies : meat. veg sucks. no offence.
TV or Movie : depends on who i'm going with.
Guitar or Drums? : drums?
Adidas or Nike : adidas for the sports stuff, nike for the fashion.
Chinese or Mexican : Chinese
Cheerios or Corn Flakes : cheerios!
Cake or Pie : cake! imagine a chocolate pie. yuck.
MTV or VH1 : MTV, cause idk what VH1 is.

body super damn sticky now. i shall go bathe. ta!

DISCOUNTED CAB RIDE

2009-10-15T22:11:00.003+08:00

i'd much rather have opportunities than chances.
just like how it's better being good than lucky any day.

was kinda late for school, so cabbed down.
turned out the driver was my primary school friend's father. LOL!

exams today, again. i don't want to post about how crappy the papers are cause it'll just depress the shit out of me.
friday is a WASTE OF TIME. normal school day. do what? might as well stay at home study.
deepavali on monday, so no exams. tuesday finish up everything.

mum's back from the hospital, yay!

i don't know how to end off this post, so i guess.. bye!

SUCKS.

2009-10-13T14:28:00.002+08:00

read my lips: FUCK.

chinese confirm fail.
离题by dont know how much.
all three question for compo also dont know how to read.

physics, worse. if pass i'm going vegetarian for a day.
heck, if chinese pass i go vegetarian for a week.
this is so screwed up man.

maths paper today, reasonably easy.
confident of scraping a high B. hope paper 2's as straightforward.
social studies wasn't that bad, i know can pass.

now there's chemistry to look forward to.
i'm not going to love tomorrow.

11th october 2009

2009-10-11T19:56:00.002+08:00

Lack of love

everything has a second pair.
do and don't do, truth and dare.
i've went through life. i'd had enough.
so i journeyed to find my other half.

not long later, i saw the world through new eyes.
teenage girls holding hands with guys.
a farmer and his shepherd dog high up on the hills.
watching the sky fading into red hues.

pehens with their peacock mates, plumes grand in the wind
an alley cat with its kittens young, feeding from a bin
a piglet with its mother pig, a stray dog and its puppy
an orphan lying on the street, crying for his mummy.

not till then did i know, in each heart there lies a lair
a secret, sacred place of trust, only the worthy can live there
although i thought otherwise, in your heart, i'm not worthy to set foot there
'cause there's nothing i can do to change the fact; i don't belong anywhere.

-Nicholas .O

eoys coming nearer~
mother tounge AND physics on monday. screw it.
good luck everyone.

.

2009-10-05T16:15:00.001+08:00

you don't know me well enough.
what the hell did you expect to freaking ACHIEVE?

dull

2009-09-29T15:15:00.003+08:00

i have it tough, too. but none of you ain't ever gonna notice it.

'you sure about this?'
'don't worry. nothing will happen to you as long as it's in my power to prevent it.'
'yeah? so what happens when it's not in your power?'

silence. the birds in the trees fell silent. He broke his gaze away from my face and looked out towards the forest, lips pursed together, pondering his answer.

'that,' he finally replied, 'won't be for a while.'

MIA for a few weeks. exams drawing closer.
good luck, guys.

23rd september 2009

2009-09-23T19:46:00.002+08:00

if there's one thing i learnt in my fifteen years of living, it's that nobody cares to bother if you're sad. they only care that you make them happy, because to everyone else, 'them' is all that matters.

through blows,

2009-09-22T19:37:00.004+08:00

friendship grows. until you strike too hard, too many times.

with all that's going on, it's a marvel i've managed to keep up in this maelstrom of papers that teachers call homework.

there's a ton of work to complete, and i'm slugging out on my computer. man.
i've not revised a single piece of shit.
i blame it on having no time, but the truth is, i can't concentrate on my own.
i can't think about work when all my other friends are concentrating on games and everything.
i need some time on my own.

bought Halo ODST, and now i'm itching to go try it out.. but i gotta restrain myself. work, then play.
anyone wants to go out study, call me.
i'm free at all times. chemistry, phyics, maths, whatever. PLEASE. I NEED HELP.

had a terrible sore throat today.
voice degenerated to a rasp within the first hour.
fortunately got better before recess.

i've tried everything i could.
guess i'm never gonna be good enough.

two shadows beside me

2009-09-21T21:13:00.005+08:00

i'd give anything to snap my fingers once and be right there.

happy hari raya? i think.

had a weirded dream about two blacks hacking each other to death with bricks.
should be something reflecting on my personality, all this hacking and death.

met up w/ brenna at 9am, then over to starbucks to finish the maths homework.
i say 'finish', but in reality i only did 2 ACS papers. and half of the questions were left undone.
left at 1+, then homed all the way.

school tomorrow. idk how our physics project wil turn out, but given our STRAINOUS TIME SCHEDULE, mr goh'd better give us a good mark lol.
i mean, there's fire, wood and all that. elements sehhh. was supposed to have water too, but was harder to do than the fire.

gotta finish up my tuition homework now. ta.

i'm not your enemy. don't treat me like one.

breaking skin

2009-09-21T07:42:00.002+08:00

tagged by jingheng

1) Who was the last person you texted ?- brenna
2) Who was the first person that texted you today ?- nobody yet, but i have a feeling it's gonna be IRIS.
3) Who was the last person you last met ?- weilun
4) Would you consider yourself spoiled?- nope!
5) What time did you went to bed last night ?- 1am+
6) Have you ever had a best friend who is opposite sex ?- thinking back... nope!
7) Do you want someone dead ?- nope!
8) What are you thinking right now ?- nope! i mean, sianz, 7.50 onlyyyy
9) Who was the last person you took picture with ?- the projector
10) Do you wish someone was with you right now ?- yes!
11) Who are you talking to right now ?- nobody
12) What does the last message say?- lol. freaking long. don't want put.
13) Is someone in your mind ?- nope! chocolate more likely.
14) Who is complaining to you right now ?- my mum. 'aiyo, why always have police?' (project time)
15) 10 people tagged to do quiz (not in order)-
1)axel-
2)xiaopang-
3)brenna-
4)dean-
5)junhao-
6)jasnyn-
7)weilun-
8)yonglong-
9)wenkai-
10)mofo-
(LOL out of people to use.)
16) When was the last time you chatted with 3 (brenna) ?- i frgot. friday?
17) What if 5 and 10 quarrel (junhao, mofo)?- LOL. SEE IF THEY MEET UP FIRST.
18) Who is 1 having a relationship with (axel) ?- he's single! go get 'im girls!
19) Is 9 fierce (wenkai)?- i don't know~
20) Is 3 & 4 studying at the same school (brenna, dean)?- yes!
21) Who is 2 to you ?(xiaopang)- my good friend! who likes borrowing my money hehe :P
22) How did you know 10 (mofo)?- ever since never
23) When did you last talk to 6 & 8 (jasnyn, yonglong)?- omfg. this one is also freaking long tiem ago.
24) Are you close with 7 (weilun)?- i think so!
25) How long have you know 1 (axel) ?- three years!
26) What if 5 & 7 fight ?(junhao, weilun)- i oon't think this is valid scenario, but i'm putting my money on weilun.
27) How long have you known 9 (wenkai) ?- approx. 9 months?
28) Say something about 2. (xiaopang)- owe me $2.
29) Is 4 trustworthy ? (dean)- i think so!
30) Who is 1 to you ? (axel)- brother!
31) Do you argue with 7 everytime ( weilun)- i don't recall ever having argued with him lol
32) How well do you know 5 (junhao)- very well! he uh, well, i know he studies in east view~
33) Do you know things about 1 ?(axel)- yes. has a secret collection of pokemon cards hidden under his bed.
34) Is 2 & 9 schoolmates (xiaopang, wenkai)?- yes!
35) What if 4 & 10 fight (dean, mofo)?- refer to question 17.

bye!

scaling heights

2009-09-20T08:08:00.003+08:00

dearest you.

''THERE IS NO WALL WE CAN'T CLIMB, AS LONG AS WE HAVE THE DETERMINATION.''
just posted this on my fb wall. HAHA!
i suddenly felt this was a good quote and thus, it earned a place in my blog. lol!

so, to sum up my saturday/ sunday
woke up at 11+, prepared awhile and went to do finish up the bloody physics project.
met up w/ weilun at 3, then went to tampines sports hall to play LAN.
saw andy, aloysius & jonathan there and played L4D w/ them.
lol, macham whoever use infected almost sure win sia.

went back around 7, then began our operation.
a lot of stuff i want to put, and got picture i want to post, but don't dare only. LOL!
for the full details chat me in msn, cause i'm dying to tell this to someone. LOL!

so, me, weilun and aravin did the project cause both amirul and chunyin cmi.
chunyin lazy only. _l_
from 7pm do all the way until 4am in the morning. NABEI.
'GOD. I LOVE YOU. PLEASE HELP US.'
i remember chanting this for 15 min straight.
end up have 2 kind-hearted malay guys help us, or else we will still be over there grinding our teeth.
thanks man!

then very sian, nobody pei me eat supper.
heng aravin want smoke, agree to accompany me.
end up we at one part gambling.
*T%& %)#@(*&! _l_
i from owe him $2 for food, then -$.6.50, then earn until $11.50
should STOP, but he keep on continue. now i owe him $2.50 again.
SO THE SIAN.

video wil be uploaded when i get the high quality one from aravin.
HE VERY FUNNY SIA. WASTE TIME TALKING ON THE INTRO WHEN HIS CAMERA HAS NO SPEAKER.
END UP JUST SEE SOME TEETH FLASH HERE FLASH THERE.
LOL!

bus-ed home around 6+, reached home a while ago. now i'm gonna sleep. goodnight!

WAIT. before that, my promised number 4:

4. A little too not over you - David Archuleta

It never crossed my mind at all
That's what I tell myself
What we had has come and gone
You're better off with someone else
It's for the best I know it is but I see you
Sometimes I try to hide what I feel inside
And I turn around, you're with him now
I just can't figure it out

*Tell me why you're so hard to forget
Don't remind me, I'm not over it
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you, not over you*

Aren't memories supposed to fade?
What's wrong with my heart?
Shake it off, let it go
Didn't think it'd be this hard
Should be strong, movin' on but I see you
Sometimes I try to hide what I feel inside
And I turn around, you're with him now
I just can't figure it out

**

Maybe I regret everything I said
No way to take it all back, yeah
Now I'm on my own, how I let you go
I'll never understand
I'll never understand

**

Tell me why you're so hard to forget
Don't remind me, I'm not over it
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth
And I really don't know what to do
I'm just a little too not over you, not over you

MV could've been a little better, but the song's still terrific.
after this onwards, the rest are all korean. sorry!
lyrics may be a bit of a mouthful.

k, gotta catch up on my sleep.
my eyebags are so aravin! LOL!

ta.

19th september 2009

2009-09-19T11:38:00.004+08:00

i tried my hardest not to care, but..

sorry for this belated update!

5. Always a day too late - Claude Kelly

Ooh ooh oooh oooh oooh oooh
I guessed there’s no point saying this now
Its done and you’re gone, this doesnt count
But now that you’ve gone away i’ve realised every day
I made a mistake, You’re the best thing i’ve ever found

*But now that i want you,
You’re moving on
I tried to call you but nobody’s home
I didnt know this, till you went away
I’m always a day too late*

Oooh ooooh oooh ooooh ooooh always a day too late
I’m done i know,
Waiting this long
There’s no explanation,
For letting you go
And you were right all along
I missed you bad when you’re gone
I finally opened my eyes and now im standing alone

**

But you ran to me, i didnt want to be bothered, but now i finally see
That you’ve moved onto another
Now honestly i get the reason why you left
But damn i wish i had you back and…

**
**

Ooh ooh oooh oooh ooh oooh always a day too late
Oooh oooh oooh oooh ooh always a day too late

reading the comments for this video was quite interesting.

guys. don't think that your girl will wait around for you.
the reality is that they will get tired and move on.

up next, a sneak peek at number 4.
my favourite english song, afterwards its korean al the way.

Should be strong, movin' on but I see you
Sometimes I try to hide what I feel inside
And I turn around, you're with him now
I just can't figure it out

this is already a pretty damn big clue.
any guesses to what it is?

probable physics project later.
tc for now.

P.S
happy birthday to brother & hf!

school escape

2009-09-17T21:13:00.006+08:00

you know exactly how i feel. i know how exactly you feel.
i think we're getting to know each other a bit too well, hmm?

Teenage's finally here!
and along with it is yet, another poster of BOF.
what the heck man. 3 months of them already. can't they like, give some hot taiwanese babe's poster of something. lol

got locked in school today, but managed to escape by climbing over the school fence. to do the moment justice, i shall do a frame-by-frame account.

me, aravindas, weilun, amiruls' shazzani and hakim were in class having 'fun' with our pythagoras switch. after several failed attempts, we gave up and decided to go home. until we realised.. we were the last 5 people in the school. we crossed over to the main gates to find out that, to our eternal horror, they were locked. desperate, the five of us went to the indoor sports hall and climbed over the confined gate, where a light, physical and mental, shone at the far end. it wasn't until aravin was about to cross the gate when we realised what a weiner he was. he's afraid of heights. though he was afraid, the temptation of freedom and life was enough to overcome his fear, changing him into a real man. nothing eventful happened, and we got past the gate without incident.
though we had crossed the first hurdle, escape was by no means an easy option. barbed wired fences covered the perimeter of the entire field. the setting would not have looked out of place in a horror movie. no matter where we went, there was no way out. us five took a toilet break while gathering up what little we had left of our strength to batter our way past the final stage of our journey.
in a final do-or-die attempt, we rushed at the field gate, scaling it one at a time. the gate mentioned was high, and falling was more than likely to be fatal, but the lure of freedom was too powerful. each time one of us crossed over, i looked back, expecting to see the dismembered mug of some demented creature out for food. it wasn't until i was safely over the fence when i started breathing normally again.
the aforementioned light shone brighter than before, as though it was glad i had managed to survive this perilous ordeal. i turned my head towards the source of the light. freedom beckoned.

or, in summary form... school's main gate was locked when we finished out project, so we went over to the field and climbed over the field gate. aravin's a sissy who's afraid of heights. went to bus stop with weilun and spent my time in the bus visualising l4d scenes in the field.

lame eh. if you've read until here, let me praise you for being such a ~~suckerhead~~ good and loyal reader! lol!
maths test on circle properties tomorrow. sure die, i have to burn midnight oil again.

it's now the ideal revision time, 10:30 at night.
the peaceful silence, the serenity
nothing but my diamdiam 手机.
msg me damn itxz.
i'm super bored.
oh yeah, the pics!

part-time burglar tricks:

look around for any people in the vicinity

smile for the camera!

this is our pythagoras switch project:

London Bridge! (LB)
our project name~
the main part of the pythagoras switch. damn fast end sia. sad.

at chunyin's house area:

a lot more videos, msn me for em!
study time now~ cya!

prove it.

2009-09-16T19:01:00.002+08:00

there's always a tomorrow, but there's no guarantee that tomorrow will be any better than today.

got scolded by mr yeong and mr goh for falling asleep during their lessons.
i really can't help it.
sometimes i just can't stand myself.
and trigo is one of the most important chapters too.
there's too much going on inside my head that i can't think.

attempted chemistry just now.
did 8 questions and got 4 right.
out of those 4, 3 is checked back and corrected.
i feel so damn useless.
why can't i concentrate? why, why, why?
do i really just suck so much?
i need to find the motivation to inspire myself.
but i'm the sort of person who can't ever be inspired.

tuition again tomorrow.
mum wants me to get tutored for both sciences as well as maths.
if that happens..
i'll go crazy.

headache's getting so bad i can feel it in my bones.
it's affecting my appetite, too. one reccess is enough for my whole day.
sigh.

english oral today. screwed up a little at the picture, but overall i think i did reasonably well.
didn't complete the physics project as weilun and chunyin had cca.

ah. sian. i'll upload number 5 (is it number 5?) tomorrow.

i don't want the past to repeat itself.
when i was like a stranger to you, and vice versa.
i want to open up, smile a bit more.
but somehow, inside, my body forces me to mantain a serene expression.
i'm sorry. it's just a bit too much for me to handle.

exhausted

2009-09-15T20:46:00.003+08:00

'Who's to say you have all the answers? Who's to say any one person has all the answers?'
'Leaders are chosen all the time-'
'Exactly! That's my point! Leaders are chosen. Chosen. It's about free will. People can choose who to put their trust in, whether it's the Council of Faar or the viceroy of Leeandra. It's up to the people. And if that leader fails, they won't be leading for long. History has proven that. Nobody can have infalliable power because nobody is infalliable, especially not a leader who rises to power by manipulating the people he claims to care so much about. Dictators don't stay in power long, and you want to be the dictator of all there ever was or will be. Give me a break! You don't care about the people of Halla. That's just an excuse. You only care about the power.'
'I can guide Halla to heights you can't even imagine'
'How? By playing on people's worst instincts? That's what you're obsessed with - the worst side of people. What kind of leader is that? Halla isn't perfect and will never be. But it's right. That's the way it was meant to be. People have the right to choose their own destiny, right or wrong.'
'And that is where we disagree.'

-Pendragon, Raven Rise

very tired, today.
physics project totally screwed up.
lazy to type everything out. tomorrow, maybe.

i finally downloaded a straight version of L4D. has sound and all that.
anyone want play, msg me! i can play via garena only. no steam.

chinese project still not up. i'm thinking of copying weilun's bag idea lol.
i have the blueprints for my poster, but i need mum's help with the slogan. HAHA!
chinese A* hor, maisiaosiao

um, number six next?

6. Inconsolable - Backstreet Boys

I close the door
Like so many times, so many times before
Filmed like a scene on the cutting room floor
I wanna let you walk away tonight without a word
I try to sleep, yeah
But the clock is stuck on thoughts of you and me
A thousand more regrets unraveling
oh, if you were here right now, I swear I'd tell you this

*
Baby I don't wanna waste another day
Keeping it inside, it's killing me
Cause all I ever wanted comes right down to you (to you)
I wish that I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you, every time you leave
I'm inconsolable
*

I climb the walls, yeah
I can see the edge, But I can't take the fall, no
I've memorized the number
So why can't I make the call
Maybe cause I know you'll always be with me
In the possibility

**

No, no, no
I don't wanna be like thisI just wanna let you know
That everything I hold in
Is everything I can't let go (oooh, can't let go)
Cause baby,
**

Don't you know it baby
I don't wanna waste another day
I wish that I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you, every time you leave
I'm inconsolable
Yeah, yeah, yeah Oooh, I'm inconsolable
Whoaa yeah
I'm inconsolable

my old favourite has dropped quite a bit.
but the lyrics are just simply AWESOME!

k, i really have to get started on my chinese project now.
ta~

14th september 2009

2009-09-14T23:14:00.003+08:00

damn it. damn it. damn it.

went to school late today on purpose so i would miss spot check.
SUAY SUAY, the minute i walk in aravindas jitao 'nicholas ong! hair!'
fxck man.

gotta chiong a lot of assignments.
i'm attempting to complete the whole stack of papers on my table.
approx 1/2m high. shiok.

chinese project still undone. chinese sucks ttm, i swear.
&i've got a terrible headache that just keeps getting worse.

gtg alr~
cya!

13th september 2009

2009-09-13T10:33:00.002+08:00

without passion, determination is just so much empty fuel.

it's been a long time since i've done a quiz so..

SEVEN THINGS YOU WILL FIND IN YOUR ROOM:
1. my bed?
2. fan
3. BOOKS. lots of them.
4. messy cupboard
5. speakers for when i want to blast music
6. charger etc.
7. um. magazines?

SEVEN THINGS YOU CAN’T LIVE WITHOUT:
1. handphone!
2. computer!
3. friends?
4. tv?
5. MUSIC!
6. my bolster lolzxzx
7. books!

SEVEN THINGS ON YOUR MIND:
1. girls!
2. holidays so fast end siol -.-
3. REVISION! REVISION! REVISION!
4. somebody msg me damn it ):
5. what's there to do today?
6. Teenage's late this month
7. what should i read next? :/

SEVEN OTHER THINGS -
DO YOU
1. Believe In God?- yeah
2. Had A Dream Come True?- the ones i want never come true.
3. Read The Newspaper?- nope. i prefer fiction.
4. Get Enough Sleep Everyday?- hardly!
5. Have A Best Friend?- i.. think so.
6. Take A Bath Daily?- who doesn't sia. wth

and coincidentally, there is no number 7. so i'll replace it with...

7. The way i are - Timbaland
I ain't got no money
I ain't got no car to take you on a date
I can't even buy you flowers
But together we can be the perfect soul mates
Talk to me girl

Baby, it's alright, now you ain't gotta floss for me
If we go there, you can still touch my love, it's free
We can work without the perks, just you and me
Thug it out 'til we get it right

*Baby if you strip, you could get a tip
'Cause I like you just the way you are
I'm about to strip and I want it quick
Can you handle me the way I are?
I don't need the cheese or the car keys
Boy I like you just the way you are
And let me see ya strip, you could get a tip
'Cause I like*

I ain't got no Visa
I ain't got no Red American Express
We can't go nowhere exotic
It don't matter 'cause I'm the one that loves you best
Talk to me girl

Baby, it's alright, now you ain't gotta floss for me
If we go there, you can still touch my love, it's free
We can work without the perks, just you and me
Thug it out 'til we get it right

**

Baby girl
I don't got a huge ol' house
I rent a room in a house
Listen baby girl
I ain't got a motorboat but
I can float ya boat
So listen baby girl
Once you get a dose of D.O.E
You gon' want some mo'
So listen baby girl
When I make it I want you back
Want you back, yeah

i know it's old but i like it (:

seeker

2009-09-11T13:24:00.005+08:00

do your best, & the best will do you.
(LOL, if you understand my meaning, great. if not, go ask someone who does! HAHA!)

taken by Brenna the Stalker

should i do my number 8, or finish my chalet post first?
*flips a coin-

back from the chalet at last! very taxing, but also very fun.
first night, all stay awake & chat about death, ghosts and other stuff.
in the end all very scared lol.

went to macdonalds to slack.
some retards come kajiao us cause we 'diao their lanjiao'.
or as they put it, 'diao simi lanjiao?'
lame shit.

second day, had to go back to school for maths.
woke up at 8am and rushed over without bathing. reached school on time, but was very smelly & sticky.
slept upon reaching chalet, then bbq and everything.
some of us got high watching the america's next top model lol
though to me, all of them suck ballz.

i'll let the pictures do the talking from here on
top three pics were taken by axel~

lol noobz! shaky hands!

check out xiaopang's expression!

me all the way!>

made mini- fortresses out of domino blocks.

axel

xiaopang

yu ting, zhenghou

junjie, xiaopang

curry chicken!

this cat is damn cute lol. for the face pic check out axel's blog.

that little shawty fire burnin' on the tamal. (sp?)

LOL. JJ'S UNGLAM PIC

yuting

NOW, FOR THE NUMBER 8th SONG...

8. Broken Strings - James Morrison

Let me hold you for the last time
It's the last chance to feel again
But you broke me, now I can't feel anything
When I love you and so untrue
I can't even convince myself
When I'm speaking it's the voice of someone else

*Oh, it tears me up
I tried to hold on but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it's not enough
To make it all okay
You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real
Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before?*

Oh, what are we doing?
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us
Running back through the fire
When there's nothing left to say
It's like chasing the very last train
When it's too late, too late

**

But we're running through the fire
When there's nothing left to say
It's like chasing the very last train
When we both know it's too late, too late
You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real
Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse
So how can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before?
Oh, you know that I love you a little less than before
Let me hold you for the last time
It's the last chance to feel again

great song! can't honestly say the same for the MV though.
& like my new blogsong?
it's seeker from DJ max.
i love the dark, haunting, mysterious tune! completely alluring and totally.. seductive, for want of a better word.

school's opening in a few more days, shiok.
i hate rotting at home.
this year i swear swear SWEAR i will work harder.
i refuse to be looked down upon.

boss of me

2009-09-09T12:24:00.003+08:00

you can find hundreds of reasons and thousands of excuses, but the fool will never find his fault.
& i had been such a fool..

chalet later. can't say i'm very excited, but..
it's a bit odd having an all guys chalet lol.

thursday's gonna be sick.
9-5 at school
tuition (THANK GOD!) rescheduled to some other date, else my whole chalet will be spent nerding.
super tired today, cause i was chionging revision at night.
can't believe i actually fell asleep on my table.
when i woke up there was eraser dust all over my face.
FML.

physics just now, very boring. spent my last 1/2 hour listening to my handphone.
got irritated on the bus.
first, driver don't know what problem, keep on sudden break. my knee almost dislocated twice.
then, got one girl just walk up and freaking sat beside me when there was so obviously an empty seat in front.
third, aft she left another old man sit beside me. i want get down the bus, THAT ASSHOLE NEVER MOVE. make me squeeze my way through, then keep on 'tch tch tch', AS THOUGH IS MY FAULT.
end up make whole bus wait.
_l_

z, nevermind. i'll continue with my top 10,

& up at number 9 comes..

9. Beat again - JLs

Damn,
The Doctor’s just finished telling me there’s no time
Losing you could be the end of me and that I
Should do the things that I wanna do how could I
Without you, without you, ooh, ooh
Cos you’re the only I let in
Tell me how to stop this feeling spreading
I’m hoping somehow that you know, ooh, ooh

*Let’s just get back together
We should’ve never broke up
They’re telling me
That my heart won’t beat again
We should have stayed together
Cos when you left me it stopped
They’re telling me
That my heart won’t beat again
Won’t beat again
It’s killing me

*

If I died,
Yeah would you come to my funeral would you cry
Would you feel some regret that we didn’t try
Or would you fall apart the same as I, I, I, I
And would it always haunt you baby
That you missed your chance to save me
Cos you know it’s not too late

**

I need you back in my arms
I need love CPR
Cos it’s getting so cold, ooh
I need you back again
Or else I’ll never mend
And girl if I go, I go, I go, I go
**

I’m beggin’ please don’t let me go X 4

over to xiaopang's house now.
see ya!

10

2009-09-08T11:51:00.005+08:00

THIS IS A LIZARD. AND YES, IT'S SHEDDING IT'S SKIN.
first time i'd ever seen this phenomenom.

we can whine, we can cry
we can sit back and watch people die
we can beg, we can weep
we can take what's ours to keep
we can lie, we can hurt
we can leave people down in the dirt
while there's all these things that we can do
one question keeps us humane: will you?

late for chemistry by one whole hour. cool eh?
still so happy, thought i could be early for the first time in my life by waking up at 7.30am.
sigh.

very very tired, couldn't sleep last night.
even though i went to bed at 12, the omgwtf amount of coffee intake kept me awake for about, oh, 3 hours. TORTURE YOU KNOW. SLEEPY YET CANNOT SLEEP.

for fun, i will make a playlist composed of my own personal top 10.
ALL LANGUAGES. not just english & chinese.
&please keep any negative comments to yourself. you won't want me getting angry.

& COMING IN AT NUMBER TEN IS:

10. Fire Burning - Sean Kingston

Kingston
Let’s Go
Hey, hey, hey
Red One
Hey Hey Shawty got that super thing
Hotter than the sun of south in spain
Got me soon as I walked through the door
My pocket started tickle-ing
The way she dropped it low that thang
Got me wanna spend my money on her, her

*
She get it pop it lock it drop it,
That birthday cake,
Got a candle, need to blow that crazy flame away
Now take my red, black card and my jewellery
Shawty is cool like the fire,
Cool like fire

Somebody call 911
Shawty fire burning on the dance floor
Whoa
I gotta cool her down
She won't bring the roof to the ground on the dance floor
Whoa
She’s fire burning, fire burning on the dance floor
That little shawty’s fire burning on the dance floor
Shes fire burning fire burning on the dance floor
That little shawty’s fire burning on the dance floor
*

Fire burning fire burning

That body is a masterpiece
The order is one in every hundred years
But ain’t no doubt i’m taking it home
i'm afraid we'll blow them legs
Little mama game is about to change
She’ll be on covers over the world

**

She got that fire in her dance that’ll make them fella’s run around
Hey
No exit from the dance floor so them boys want more
Hey
She got that fire in her dance that’ll make them fella’s run around
Mandem get outta my way , everybody, sing it now
No exit from the dance floor so them boys want more

**
Somebody call 911

number 9 will be tomorrow!
&have the best day ever~

7th september 2009

2009-09-07T11:33:00.004+08:00

if only fate could rewind me to that once upon a time

LOL. explosm pwn0rzx

my results slip!
ENGLISH - 67 B3 -.-
CHINESE - 36 F9 -.-
A MATHS - 45 D7 -.-
MATHS - 65 B4 -.-
CHEMISTRY - VR
PHYSICS - VR
COMBINED HUMANITIES - 64 C5 -.-

as you can see i'm not in the least bit impressed with my results. however, the teacher's comments..

Nicholas has shown some leadership qualities as he often takes the initiative to lead.

woolala.
attendance 40/47 only. missed one whole week of school 'cause of the recent turn of events.
mustmustMUST buck up during holidays.

chemistry early in the morning, nearly made it on time.
chemistry again tmr. then physics, then 8 HOURS OF FREAKING MATHS (and the chalet).

next thing you know,

2009-09-05T23:57:00.003+08:00

holidays have officially begun!

no oral today, cause i'm under ms nah.
which means i have to endure a long time before it's my turn at the table.
i'd rather get it done and over with whilst i still haven't lost my nerve.

went to tampines sports hall to CS & BF2 w/ weilun, daniel goh, chunyin & his friend just now.
stupid computer kept changing to desktop after a few minutes. makes playing BF2 a pain in the ass.
for some reason the LAN session wasn't as high as last saturday. in fact, it was a little boring. ._.

homed at 4-5pm+? and then over to defu lane to eat seafood ._.
servings small until eat finish still starving.
and the restaurant name 'seafood delight', the menu very limited.
prawns, lobsters and crabs. and a few clams.
DONT EVEN HAVE FISH CAN. SQUID ALSO DONT HAVE.
-.-
mainly is just tofu and pork.
bo-ring.

it's been kinda long since i last posted photos, so..
i'll try taking more, probably during the upcoming chalet.
midnight alr :O
k, cya!

last day of school!

2009-09-04T21:41:00.004+08:00

'anger is a poison. you must learn to let go of it lest you corrupt your better nature.'

had to clear my desk today. freaking heavy, my arms now cramp like siao.
teacher also damn toot sia. last day then say.

met up after school, and like, half of the guys (including me) were watching the 'gee gee' MV.
i swear that group is freaking chio.

went swimming after school with axel, xiaopang, junjie & junhao
fortunately no sunburn, though was freaking hot.
axel & junhao still go 'suntanning' lol.
frgot bring my stuff sia -.-
thanks axel for the spare stuff & junjie for the towel :D

went home and then to downtown east for dinner.
if any of you happen to drop by 2(New York), MUST MUST MUST (x100000) try the cold white chocolate velvet.
is like the most OMGWTF thing i drank in my whole life.
it is that great!

i suddenly feel like playing pokemon ._.
random, i know, but..

& a little question: what do you guys do to kill time?

if you actually are reading this, THANK YOU A LOT :D
<3 ya loads, whoever you are.

2 more days to holidays~

2009-09-03T22:10:00.002+08:00

and i'm really not looking forward to it.
back to school from monday to thursday, with 6 HOURS+ OF FREAKING MATHS.
wth man. during chalet some more.
WHAT KIND OF HOLIDAY SIA. __

''everyone has a role to play. i thought mine was to be the lamewad everybody made fun of. but i'm starting to think that i'm better than that.''

finally getting a handle on the pythagoras switch.
though i really don't think it'll be in the least bit impressive. gotta hope for the best.

''θ theta - a fiery circle representing the world, and a snake spanning the middle.''

school is super super boring these days.
i talk so little to the extent that this post alone eclipses that of the words i said today.
i hate this.
my mind can't function fast enough to process the words without insulting someone accidentally.
LOL.

frgot my results for CA, will post them up when i remember.
though i only know that it SUCKS BEYOND WORDS.
esp english. idk what the fuck is wrong with me. from A1 drop to B3. __
nabei, i'm get pissed off everytime i see my results.
chinese also. don't want drop, but impossible to jiayou.
41, 40, 36. SA2 B3 ALSO CANNOT PASS LA. WALAO.

it's 11pm now, and i'm still up on the computer. awesome, eh?
body clock's totally screwed.
i sleep in class even when it's freaking noisy.
i can't help it. boring lessons = power naps.

..i want company.
i miss the days when i could talk about anything under the sun.
maybe sec 3 life has finally gotten to me and i'm going crazy.

what if?

2009-09-02T20:32:00.004+08:00

i want to just let all this emotion out & see where it leads to.

gaaah.

HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY!

2009-09-01T09:49:00.002+08:00

double, or nothing?

this is one day late but who cares~

started off with being asleep on the bus, then a long speech by our dearest principal, mr ee.
i swear that old man needs to get a proper writer. HIS SPEECHES ARE SO BORING DAMN IT.
congratulations to all the teachers who were voted as caring & inspirational!
ms ayesha showed us a couple of videos in class, on the performances.
then, up to the hall, where i resigned myself to more sleeping.

and what do you know, it wasn't as boring as always. it's actually pretty good, esp brenna's performance w/ the keyboard.
another interesting bit was the dance by the teachers, on the HSM song, HAHA.

went over to the kopitiam after school, then headed to safra w/ axel, junjie, junhao, xiaopang & zhenghou.
played bowling, but apart from me and junhao the rest of them didn't really know how to play :O
went back to pasir ris, then met up with tianshen & his stead.
BLOODY HELL. he wear slippers, then cannot go in. end up he go home change, but not in school uniform, also cannot go in. noob :D

went home & completed my work, then washed up a $#%^($%@*^ pile of dishes half as tall as me.

now for a little riddle:

''On my way to St. Ives I saw a man with 7 wives. Each wife had 7 sacks. Each sack had 7 cats. Each cat had 7 kittens. Kitten, cats, sacks, wives. How many were going to St. Ives?''

answer will be given on my next post.
bye!

200th post \m/

2009-08-30T10:17:00.002+08:00

where there's hope, i can't go on.

its sunday and i'm at home.
whats should i do today?

up the vine

2009-08-28T21:33:00.003+08:00

someone to talk to, someone to guide me

took bus to school for the first time in 2 weeks <33 lol.
was enjoying my music for a long time on the bus, with my old earpiece, since my new one died on me.

went to chunyin's house after school to think of our physics project, pythagoras switch!
after loads of thinking, we came up with a basic sketch.
LOL. now i think back, my ideas were seriously 'over ambitious', as chunyin put it. haha!
tuition, then rot. i feel a bit lifeless now.

nothing to upload, but just for YOUR entertainment i'll try finding jokes or something to post up.
maybe more poems?
idk. stay tuned!

freaking tired today,
my energy level is like kena poison, from 100mp drop until 25mp, until recess.
aft recess, jitao shoot until over max level. LOL~ i'm being lamed.

chalet in a few days time, but is damn freaking sian now.
a lot of people dont want go, and extra classes cut until holidays not like holidays anymore.
i'm getting a bit reluctant to go now. main reason, all guys chalet.
with all that Y chromosome in the air, can already guess what they're gonna talk about.

sex.

idk if i'm different or whatever, but wth man. i don't like to talk about this kind of stuff.
still got lots of stuff to settle. food, drinks, etc.

nothing much to post now. its so damn boring at home.
i'm thinking of watching some freaking scary movie myself, just so i'll feel something.
but.. i ain't got the guts. or the source. or the 'myself' part.
anyone want to watch with me?
but right, must not halfway 'AAAAH! I DON'T DARE WATCH LIAO!' then zhao.
and must be some freaking strong person so that their bones won't break when i get scared.
frget it. strong person, cfm still not strong enough. LOL!

i gotta stop talking to myself.
ta.

27.

2009-08-27T16:35:00.003+08:00

'when was the last time you praised him?'
two years ago?'

'when he was two years old.'
-小孩不笨2

i know what it's like to have people feeling disappointed with me.
i can't stand it.

14 more days to chalet!

2009-08-26T23:29:00.006+08:00

a journey of a thousand miles must begin with a single step.
-lao tzu i think. can't remember too clearly.

WARNING. LONG, BORING POST AHEAD.

caught the show 'where got ghost' with usual clique, at century square
quite good, i give it a 3.5/5 star rating.
i was seated alone cause i frgot to get axel's ticket.
so bo bian, one person sit farfar away~
though i didn't dare to laugh or shout alone, it was still quite exhilarating to watch a hor-medy show 'myself'!

walked around and chatted for a while before going home.

& i'm getting happy/ sad over my recent results ._.
happy - my maths is getting better & better, and i can do sums with full confidence now! social studies and humanities getting better too.

sad - chinese fail, physics sucks, chemistry no hope and english deproved until tok gong. wtf.
now teacher also laugh at me for losing both languages to weiling. -'-

didn't score that well for reader's theatre, since i was in the first group and had no chance to learn from other people's mistakes.
though natalie's group was the absolute BEST. HAHA. angmoh accents, overdone actions and elaborated speeches rolled into one. 4/5 stars!

lesson i learnt during STAR:
LOVE <> SEX <> (does not equal to)
or, WAIT.
lol, its kinda stupid telling us this, like what, we're gonna JUST DO IT.
305 lehh, so guai ;D
lol. i'm being an idiot.

time to get started on the physics project! haven't even started lol.
i want to involve fire, light and water, but the fire thing might be too much.
pytagoras switch. IDEAS NEEDED!

k, i quote from weilun's blog,
'My phone now is so damn quiet. Everyday before sleep or after sleep, wake up check handphone no msg, jiu sian.'
SAME! now my handphone is only used to check time ._.
EH, PEOPLE WHO ARE READING THIS, MSG ME WORHZXZXZXZXZX.
BAH. now i'm ad-libbing.

i feel like going on and on forever, but.. yeah. time.

by the way, !!!, whoever you are, please continue to hate-tag me. do your worst, i'll respond in kind. i'm serious. you have no idea how much fun i'm having. &don't worry about me getting hurt and all that, cause i won't be. and be honoured that i'd saved a special post just for the likes of you.

i'm going to sleep now, at exactly 12am. shiok ah!
ta~

Moving on

2009-08-23T00:30:00.005+08:00

it's been too long, without your voice, my heart's began to empty
too much is lost, what used to be two, has now decreased by the many
but now, when i look back and think, i realise in vain
its the same thing life's thrown at me, over and over again

travelling forth or moving back, i have no idea
but it's better than still holding on to all those memories dear
i've given my all, if it's not enough, there's nothing i can do
i'm simply just not good enough, no wonder we were through

since, my road's been obscured with fog, though the ride's gotten smoother
no more obstacles in the way, just one end to the other
past the uncertainty and the doubt, there's still a drop of clarity
time will definately heal all wounds, and eventually cleanse my memory

now, when i look back and think, i realise in vain.
its the same thing life's thrown at me, over and over again
i've waited once, i've done it twice, though it's energy down the drain
there's no point in holding on if it's causing this much pain

action

2009-08-22T20:32:00.002+08:00

I am only one
But still I am one
I cannot do everything
But still I can do something
And because I cannot do everything
I will not refuse to do the something that I can do
- edward everett hale

today was pretty hectic
slept like a... fucking retard cause my throat was killing me.
toss & turned for over 4 hours before i finally got up and swore.
and, guess what? my voice has degenerated to a rasp.
FUCK IT.

accompanied mum to suntec to book some tour, even though my throat was burning a hole from the inside. good right :D
actually the only reason i went there was cause...
SUNTEC. the air con, the stores, the cute girls.
left early to finish up my massive workload.
& wow. i'm starting to like maths!
my next big goal will be to overcome my terrible chemistry and physics, then attempt the worst subject in the history of killer subjects...

CHINESE.

so sian~
tomorrow, coin counting, idk for what.
my over-enthusiastic relatives la.
everything also want help out.
sigh.

i'm getting feverish. screw ballzxzxzx LA.
stupid sore throat. stupid fever. stupid everything.
i've spent more time off school this year than all the others combined.
i'm getting old~

//

fickle

2009-08-21T16:48:00.009+08:00

'come on man. the world won't end just because she left you.'
'that doesn't help.'
'well, you didn't ask for help.'

the truth does hurt.

here's the more select few of the photos!
left out a lot cause quality was poor.

and the picture of the day..
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caught on camera for making out with his purple bag!

got super annoyed with myself when i couldn't solve the stupid rubik's cube.
why do i have such a lousy memory -.-

a ton of maths questions to do, thankfully wasn't all that hard.
though still had a few i was unable to solve.

extra chem lesson today, wasn't all that bad.
lamed around with the star for about the whole lesson.
still haven't gotten started with the pythagoras switch for our physics project.

tuition later, sian.
& i have a terrible sore throat.
downed 3 spoonfuls of honey and still pain.
sianjipua. hungry also don't dare eat anything.

this post is getting lengthy.
ta.

unbelonging

2009-08-20T18:22:00.003+08:00

a decision made without prior planning is just uncertainty.

class performance today, kinda sucked IMO.
the trees never move, people never sing.
only nice part was the advert. lol!
ah but its over now anyw.

its kinda scary, no? exams just two months away.
and in a year or so i'll be kissing east view goodbye.
GUYS. after graduate must keep in contact hor!

i'm a little lazy to upload pics from the rehearsal now.
tomorrow, kay?

no tuition cause tutor lost his phone \m/

k, cya!

BACK TO MAPLE AGAIN.

2009-08-19T22:00:00.003+08:00

would you commit a crime if you knew you could get away with it?
i used to say no. i'm not so sure anymore.

this time it's bootes.
very wtf, the instant i see the stone head my whole person sian. LOL!
just playing it to pass time, until zh finished his hellgate: london & lends me the disc :O
jiayou! faster finish!

class performance tmr, though i dont think it'll be a big success.
i mean, what, not even one whole rehearsal?
oh well. at least nothing to win here.

sunburn's finally cleared. woo~
i want go swimming soon! gotta work out my 'fats'.
my blood poison level is so high i can practically dissolve my own bones.
i blame my 75% meat diet. 25% is on rice, fungi, dairy products and fish.
not one bit of green stuff at all. shiok right?

i'll upload pics once the performance is over cause i don't want other class people come see, then know the whole storyline.
nehhh. so you'll just have to wait.

i've decided to change my career choice.
sure, working with animals is great, but it doesn't put food on the table.
i'd rather be tired and my future family happy than me happy and everybody hungry.
-.-
so what now?
bio stuff's definately out. can't stand blood. makes me high :O
mechanics is boring~
businessman is beyond boring
lawyer is taxing & boring. and i have no wish to defend criminals.
chef? might consider. though i can't bring myself to kill live animals so...
i might write a book or something? boring.
EVERYTHING'S BORING. i'll end up with an office job.

bad sore throat. been shouting too much.

gna sleep now, big day ahead.
goodnight!

毋

2009-08-18T15:52:00.003+08:00

i've grown up. please give me privacy.

毋

like, wtf. what is this word?
came up in chinese paper 2 today, as a phrase.
i think teacher also give up hope on me already.
i still rmb what i wrote for mcq.
2244331333
and i really tried to do it. just that the numbers look way off. damn~

and another wtf thing. last night sleep w/ aircon on, cause freaking hot.
sleep wake up whole body sweating.
& while sleeping i had another dream.
a long road with a mountain on one end and a foggy field on the other.
on the foggy end is one old man. on the road is me & a young girl.
then the old man talk until damn random. talk about stones and fishes.
i have no freaking idea why.
woke up after that.

time to revise my physics! ta.

fire burnin' on the dance floor

2009-08-17T21:01:00.002+08:00

'god is equal. He gave all of us 24 hours, nobody gets more or less.'
-mr benjamin yeong!

i'd be lying if i said i'm happy when you are.
but i'm just jealous others can do what i can't.

sunday
intended to go to bedok to eat satay? requested by junhao wahahaha
met junjie at white sands and trained over.
met up with zhenghou outside station and not long later junhao came.
went to challenger to find zh's game (hellgate: london)
i wna download too! sounds damn fun sia.
ended up at sports stadium LAN for l4d
me & junhao vs junjie & zhenghou
infected macham win everybody sia.
didn't go to bedok, in the end ate at KFC.
afterwards went to grandmother's house for another round of dinner
more chicken, so sinful~
'jiu jiu yi ci' wont die la. LOL
afterwards i went over to kenneth's house, omfg long time never go alr.
i stil rmb got once almost at his house ton to watch fifa :D

today, intended to go for training. but mr yeong made us stay back until damn late so...
friday la.
i want every friday go swimming! D:
there's a ton of stuff i want to do.

i want to learn archery
i want to learn dancing
i want to learn piano
i want to learn swordsfighting
i want to play more bowling
i want to have more swimming
i want to go skydiving
i want to write a book
i want to write better poems
& still have a lot more.

hah, i seem to be talking to myself.
i'm not crazy, just bored and more than a little lonely.

chionging homework tomorrow. there really is no time.
night.

hmm. optimism really isn't my thing.
time for a 'darker' side of my post, if it deserves such a romantic tone.

i've been having more... frantic(?) dreams, about one person.
i don't care if you believe me or not.
just know that it's nothing romantic or fancy.
it's haunting, it's terrifying... and overwhelmingly exciting watching things play out.
hoping it'd somehow turn real.

heat's making me cranky.

7th month's approaching.
i'm no longer as afraid as ghosts as i used to be.
woo. that's cause i've got other stuff to worry about.
ta.

handwriting report?

2009-08-15T12:27:00.003+08:00

real report is damn long, so i'll just summarise a little
http://www.handwritingwizard.com/report.php?id=44931

right
wrong
no idea
my comments!

Nicholas has some type of childhood trauma that he's yet to work through. he has issues with trust and it is likely rooted in childhood.
Nicholas is withdrawn into himself, reserved and shows feelings only at times of great anger, extreme passion, or tremendous stress. (this is accurate!) Nicholas is an introvert, making decisions based on logic, therefore he is rarely impulsive. (i'm damn impulsive lol) He doesn't find any need for expressing his emotions, seeing this emotional expression as an unnecessary waste of time. (i'm shyyyy :O) He has a hard time relating to an extreme extrovert, although it is common for him to be attracted to one. Working with his hands is a pleasure. (though i hate D&T a lot, i do like craftwork)

Nicholas's basic nature is to look out for himself first. (screw you) although he can feel emotions as deeply as anyone, he will keep them to himself. (true..)

The first time someone angers Nicholas, he probably will not say anything to that person at that time. However, he will mentally keep track of everything this person does wrong to him until he cannot hold his emotions inside any longer. (this is what i like about me best :D) Then; Boom! Nicholas will cloud up and rain all over them, never regretting what he says. He won't impulsively tell someone off. (but sometimes i do - bobby lee)

Emotional stories will not sway Nicholas. He thinks totally with judgment, first considering every situation by the effect it will have on him. (RE: refer to withdrawn & not showing emotions)

Nicholas needs space and time alone, being more efficient if given a job alone, rather than being surrounded by people. (tends to get boring after a while.)
People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Nicholas doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others. (i have no idea about this :O)

Nicholas will be candid and direct when expressing his opinion. He will tell them what he thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. (so true) So, if they don't really want his opinion, don't ask for it!

--- skip if you want. here damn boring. ---
In reference to Nicholas's mental abilities, he has a very investigating and creative mind. He investigates projects rapidly because he is curious about many things. He gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but he soon slows down and looks at all the angles. He probably gets too many things going at once. When Nicholas slows down, then he becomes more creative than before. He then decides what projects he has time to finish.

He has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind, and the creative mind. He thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. When he is in the slower mode, he can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. He is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip. Nicholas is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. He needs to visualize the end of a project before he starts. he finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said he plans everything he is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned.

--- STOP! ---

Nicholas basically feels good about himself. He has a positive self-esteem which contributes to his success. He feels he has the ability to achieve anything he sets his mind to. (this is true. but refer to 'things don't necessarily mean things go as planned) However, he sets his goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". He has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, he will not take great risks, as they relate to his goals. (i'm a coward :O )

Something is incomplete in Nicholas's life. He feels frustration relating to his physical needs and desires. Somewhere in his life there is some disappointment, non-fulfillment, and interruption. This is very likely to relate to Nicholas's sexual needs. (no freaking duh. i'm underage.)

--- BORING ---
For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Nicholas has left lots of white space on the left side of the paper. Nicholas fills up the rest of the page in a normal fashion. If this is true, then Nicholas has a healthy relationship to the past and is ready to move on. The right side of the page represents the future and Nicholas is ready and willing to get started living now and planning for the future. Nicholas would like to leave the past behind and move on.
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it's still damn freaking long though.
no wonder my EL summary 14/25 only. nabei.
ta.

not recognised.

2009-08-14T21:31:00.005+08:00

temperature's soarin', it's burnin'

came back from swimming at daniel jacob's place. was freaking hot.
no idea what's wrong with the weather.

today quite shiok, went to AVT & computer lab during maths & english respectively.
on the way to com lab saw another of those things i nickname the 'death butterfly'
saw it once at my grandmother's wake, my zhor zhor's wake and outside my house twice.
i'll try to get the pic from weilun so you all will know what i'm talking about.
xiaopang saw one at his house too. he's down with chickenpox. LOL. coincidence much?
nevermind.
i'm burnt black now. damn 辛苦 can. put on shirt also pain.

comic of the day:
remixz much? HAHA.
the guy's face damn cute.

i wasn't wrong.

2009-08-13T18:29:00.005+08:00

weiting. your requested pic(s). ^

If you have love, you don't need to have anything else, and if you don't have it, it doesn't matter much what else you have.
-James M. Barrie

beautiful words.

i do all i can, yet nobody recognises me for what i'm worth.

stupid blogger just erased my skin. twice.
one more time & i'm moving to tumblr or livejournal.
dumbass.

played tag rugby during PE today.
was a little bored as i didn't know my team members.
screwed up social studies, i think, cause all my lines damn short.
one or two sentence per paragraph.
recieved back maths results for both a & e today.
like it or not, my results are pathetic.
10/20, 9/20
...gotta buck up.
slept throughout 'assembly' cause there was nothing to do.
visited xiaopang after school and omfg.
no more smooth skin! LOL. now he looks like one of my cousins.
back home now doing god knows what.
swimming/ water polo @ dj's place tomorrow.
hope don't run into that fatass again lol.

OKAY. i'm off for dinner.
stingray, woo.
see ya.

now i have no idea what i see when i look into those eyes.
& i'm pretty sure you're wondering the same.

beyond recognition

2009-08-12T15:55:00.004+08:00

without you, there wouldn't be a me.

and maybe that's why i hate you as much as i love you.

nothing much to post.
i'm beginning to suspect i'm bipolar.
happy one moment and incredibly bitter the next.
but the truth is, there's no reason for me to be angry.
i brought it upon myself.
but there's still no way to get my mind across one fact that's replaying around in my head.

i've been a fool.

misery loves company

2009-08-11T14:58:00.002+08:00

i'm depressed as heck.
someone cheer me up ):

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2009-08-10T00:05:00.002+08:00

MUST WATCH.
i've wasted singapore's 44th birthday by going to my yi poh's house.
mahjong all the way sia.
wanted to go watch the NDP but nobody jio -.-
nevermind. next year 45th birthday more grand, haha.

but while watching the telecast, i was awed, totally awed by the whole performance.
idk why.

look where we are, we've come so far, & there's still a long long way to go
with all of my heart, i will care
i'll do my part, i will share
with family and friends, together we'll stand
and in the end, hand in hand　
we will get there.

LOL. the parliament people all look so honoured.
though considering what singapore's achieved... THEY HAVE ALL THE RIGHT TO BE.

I (L) SINGAPORE.

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2009-08-10T00:01:00.000+08:00

singapore's birthday is officially over.
12:01am

national day

2009-08-09T14:48:00.003+08:00

the thing i hate most about human nature?
we change too fast.
you don't see animals being homo.
you don't see lions killing their pride members.
you don't see ordinary wolves making out with the alpha female.
so why do we?

happy 44th singapore!
though i'm only one of the (approx.) 4.4million who's gonna say that.
storewide discounts of 44% across the nation. SWEET.
today,
hougang > suntec > T1> home
pretty hectic eh. now i'm looking forward to the 8:22 pledge moment. pity i'm not p5 all over again.
i miss the fireworks display! and the shouting. lolololol

i'm hungry again.
but given my metabolism rate, i'm already undereating. no idea why.
at least i don't grow fat. HAHA

a shitload of work to be done, most of them centering about schoolwork.
so i'm counting on explosm.net to cheer me up. man i love that site.
later.

8th august 2009, WATER POLO

2009-08-08T17:20:00.005+08:00

daniel jacob's condo

choking up

yesterday was great!
went swimming at daniel jacob's place, along with axel, junjie, junhao & louis
initially was raining but cleared up.
bought a ball & played water polo
me, dj and jh vs axel, jj & louis.
score 5:3 i think. HAHA. DAMN FUN.
named the ball DANJJJHL ball
or the 'danger' ball. WAHAHAHA
not long later chunyin came.
then have people come, snatch our spot. nabei.
FATASS IN WHITE! PINK BITCH!
damn bastard sia. diedie won't frget. LOL.

went to airport afterwards for dinner w/ my cousins.
aunt coming to live with me fr about 2 weeks cause her toilet renovate or something.
gives me more reason to stay out! lol

woke up at 8:45 this morning
school at 9
cabbed over to school to realise lesson haven't start. __

now rotting at home. on a saturday. screw it man.
watching my brother play l4d -.-
i wna play sia ._. but mine got problem.
gna start anew with l4d 2 when it comes out. WOOHOO~

k, tc

7th august 2009

2009-08-07T12:07:00.002+08:00

'tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.
-shakespear
'tis better to have never had hope than having some and losing it all.
-me

it's true isn't it.
i got my hopes too high, and as a result fell into depression.
i loved and lost, and now i'm incapable of repeating the feat.
because i daren't raise my hopes anymore.

we won the class competition!
like duhh, i was the one coming up with the lines :O
LOL. okay la. couldn't have done it without the class.
305 most united amongst the sec3s liao :D
WOOHOO. WE OWN.

going swimming now. later.

6th august 2009

2009-08-06T23:19:00.005+08:00

'it ended when you destroyed the gate. you... gave up.'
my blood was burning.
not because she was wrong.

because she was right.

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'victory is always sweetest when it comes when your opponent thought he was won... just before it all comes crashing down.'

-raven rise, the never war

it's always a lot harder to forgive someone when it's you who've made the mistake.

i'm taking afternoon naps again.
there's obviously a good & bad side to that.
good thing,
rest, relaxation and an escape from all the boredom.

bad thing,
at night cannot sleep
wake up feeling crappy
SLEEP TIMING IS SCREWED. missed my stop again today cause i was sleeping on the damn bus.
fxck lol
nightmares every night (not joking)

the most recent one was a bit.. retarded.
made me excited and a little shocked.
heart was still pumping when i woke up.
man, if dreams came true...
shan't elaborate. LOL

lots of movies i want to watch!
GI joe, xia dao siao, FIGHTING, orphan(NC16)
but 7th month lehhhh. who brave enough go horror movie spammage? LOL.

tried the coke & mentos experiment w/ weilun & chunyin after school
was supposed to be part of the performance but ended up having fun.
homed, tuition and now its 12:03am.

so, goodnight! and hope you have a better night than me.

mangrove trip

2009-08-05T21:12:00.025+08:00

insignificance

finally done uploading all the photos.
mangrove swamp trip today, rocked a whole lot.
i'll let the pictures do the talking, and caption them later.
ta.

this is a butterfly's cocoon
damn big sia. bet the grub's bigger.

sea holly

ripe pongpong and over-ripe pongpong
this fruit actually is poisonous

random shot

this tree looks like someones been growing cockles on it

LOL. this was written on some dustbin

bird watching tower

and this was the dead bird. its head got eaten by the ants! :O

this was the part where daniel jacob & co. were trying to catch the dead fish

the bucket

the funny device for measuring salinity of the water

this device over here

brenna

picking up the pongpong part. sweaty work

aravin with his tattoo ._.
later teacher come my blog see sia. WTH

daniel jacob

we were squatting a little so junhao wouldn't look so short. thoughtful right. LOL

odd register number, pui la

louis, daniel jacob

chunyin, back at school

XIAOPANG'S HOUSE

2009-08-04T14:47:00.001+08:00

seven years of enduring your childish ways. how is it that you can curse, swear, and scold me, but when i talk back, i'm still in the wrong?

woo, i'm at xiaopang's house now.
i have about half a minute before he finishes his bath.
sian. he come out liao.
brb!

// i'm back at home doing a super late update while waiting for my thumbdrive to finish its work.
stupid computer, at xiaopang house can see tagbox now invisible again.
today sucked a little.
was surprised to see my score for a maths, got 6/8 even though i had 5 minutes to complete the paper. BOOYAH.
though i think my chinese is screwed. teacher come tell me she don't know what i'm writing.
good lor. next year remain in band 4.
english wasn't that bad, summary writing.

CIP tomorrow, at the mangroves. idk to be happy or what. **mosquitoes.
if it rains in the morning i'm skipping school.

ta.

pics

2009-08-03T21:24:00.010+08:00

www.explosm.net is way hilarious. always works when i'm feeling down.

'what's poking me in the back?'
LOL

derrick, junhao, junjie
(ehub arcade)

yuting, junjie, xiaopang

junhao

xiaopang, me

like, no? it'd be impossible to get to the milk. HAHA

beach

group photo alpha

group photo beta

ta~

zhenghou's birthday party

2009-08-03T20:31:00.003+08:00

'cause i have no way of knowing if you miss me as much as i do you.

''everyone wants a voice of stability.
a voice to let them know that they're not alone, that someone will always be there for them.
someone to listen to their problems. to give concern, affection, and hopefully a solution.
and there are people like that out there.
just don't treat them as though their sole mission in life is to care about you.
because, once they're lost, there's nobody else for them to turn to.''
-nicholas ong xi?

my cbox's being bitchy and refusing to let me gain access to it.
sua da pai ah. nabei.
well, mr cbox.
if you don't reappear by tomorrow i'm gonna shove you in some dusty corner of my sidebar.
all the way to the bottom. and after one week i'm gonna revert to comments.
(okay that was really very lame -.-)

fuck lol. i thought my mum came home, and i rushed out to open the door. end up is some girl selling icecream. i topless some more. nabei.
celebrated zhenghou's birthday yesterday with..
junjie
xiaopang
junhao
daniel jacob
zunjie
roy
yuting
derrick
& zhenghou the birthday boy!!

pics will be uploaded in my next post, which will be about 5 minutes after this one.
met up at seoul garden, then eat from 2pm until 4 30pm. damn shiok, only that i ate too quickly (at my normal speed, just with more food) and almost vomited it all out.
afterwards, rocked out at arcade for a while, then daniel jacob went home.
MAPLE LA. wth. stupid cutie pie monsters.
went over to pasir ris park, but xiaopang dont want go, so he went home. -'- lol
slacked at beach awhile, and found a balloon tied up in the shape of a lj. LOL.
seriously, got one hotdog, two pingpong balls and two butt cheeks. HAHA.
we 'pushed' one wish each into either of the butt cheeks and floated them to sea.
HAHAHAHAHAHA.
may our dreams come true!
just as zhenghou stood up, suddenly realise his handphone lost. wtf sia.
lent him my phone as it has light. battery from 70% drop to 30% in 15 mins.
and who called me ah. 'Withheld'. dial two times some more.
should be my ahma la, dont care.
went back to whitesands, them bus-ed home with junjie.

i remember a lot of funny moments.

SCENE 1:
seoul garden

xiaopang: '3, 2, 1'
all of us:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ZHENGHOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU

WAHAHA. zhenghou whole face red.
some patrons also applaude, wish him happy birthday.

SCENE 2:
toilet

me:
eh shit. i go toilet. i want vomit.
at toilet, smell the perfume, suddenly feel a lot better. dont know why also. lol.

SCENE 3:
beach

roy: eh, nicholas. go ask those girls for number leh.
me: dont want la. long time give up on this lifestyle liao.
roy: don't fake leh (pushes me, then he loses his balance and stumbles over some uneven sand)

SCENE 4:
beach

we all discussing zhenghou's birthday bash, then decided to toss him up and down like those politician winners.
but somehow he got wind of the plan and ran.
junhao & junjie over there, 'step first, later he unaware we gang him.'
*2min later...
zhenghou: eh, don't play liao.
all: ok, ok
he turn behind then run, we jitao CHIONG AH!
end up all 5+ of us surround him throw him like potato like that. lol

reached home at approx 10pm, did some work and slept at 1am.
still remember, drink coffee until cannot sleep. then eat cake.
then today at school like boomer.
whole stomach damn full, walk around like want doze off.

thats it for now, i go upload pics.
i never wanna hear you say~
i want it that way~
tribute to dean. LOL. for having a miserable life.

science centre

2009-08-01T10:58:00.031+08:00

pain & sadism is my way of saying 'i love you'
- Aries personality series

i just realied how slacky i was in the uploading of photos.
bloody hell, about 30+ pics to upload.
THEREFORE, i will cut it short and only post a few of them so as to avoid blogger being crappy again and deleting my post.

cousin's friend's birthday cake

mr yeong's birthday

mr yeong and his first mouth of cake
this pic was shaky cause i was FREAKING HOT & SWEATY.
and heat makes particles vibrate LOL

yonglong, axel
CONTRAST SIA. one white one black
this way taken during racial harmony day

NOW, for some behind-the-scene photos

xiaopang the giant

wenkai

zhenghao

junjie the terrorist

-----------------

the BEST food on earth, butter prawns!
idk why i love seafood so much

literature lesson, got to use lappys! :D

mr yeong, @ kfc

me, brenna

vitruvian man, junhao
THE HEIGHT DIFFERENCE LOLOLOLOL.
though the vitruvian man was about 2m tall. -.-

science center, levitating magnet

daniel jacob, junhao
@ science centre, waterworks

group photo!
i'm the one in the shade all the way to the left ._.

daniel jacob
try guessing the 3 extra people

dean's unglam photo :O

i blame the pen for my handwriting -.-

this kinda feels like you're walking on air if you imagine hard enough

wenkai as a bowl of fruit

junhao as a bowl of fruit

weilun as a bowl of fruit

group photo

davinci exhibition was not what i was expecting. i was thinking a way bigger place, but it was still pretty cool.
not very educational, but the various models of his life's work show what a genius he was.
the one thing that caught my eye the most was the vitruvian man, but... wasn't described in detail.

homed about 7+, then tuition at 8. LOTS OF WORK.

WOO. finally done. now i'm going to do my homework, then chemistry practice, then buy my physics TYS -.-
workload's been piling up higher and higher.

that's it. seeya.

mahjong?

2009-07-29T18:27:00.004+08:00

'cause you're the only one i let in

haven't been updating these past few days cause i simply didn't feel like it.

went to dean's house w/ junjie & junhao ytd, and damn it his house is huge.
taught him how to play mahjong, cause he don't know. NOOB :P

today, spent almost all my energy keeping my eyes open.
i have no idea what the hell is wrong with 'hiang'.
want put one idea across must keep going around in circles.
END UP, repeat it 3-4 times. he's 'greatly concerned' about us, yeah, sure.

its 6.30pm now, & i'm starving. i want FOOD.
AND I'VE FREAKING LOST TRACK OF ALL TIME.
last night, i went to sleep at 11pm, and woke up at 4am.
the night before yesterday, i looked up at the sky thinking it was 8+pm when it was already midnight.
-.-

gonna bathe now. science centre visit tomorrow, courtesy of mr goh.
better go charge my phone.
tc.

//
stomach freaking pain. practically INHALED my dinner, then gobbled down one entire papaya and now i gotta go to the toilet again. -.-

NOTHING TO READ!

24th july 2009

2009-07-24T22:13:00.003+08:00

i can't tell a lie to save myself.

hey guys.

ah, don't worry, i feel great. for the moment.
i just don't understand why the doctor won't let me go to school. i mean, i'm fine!
apart from those teeny little red blister things on my hands.
i'm really looking forward to monday, where i finally get a chance to open my mouth.
home's been really boring. want me to summarise?

WEDNESDAY:
eclipse supposed to come up but i was asleep.
woke at 9, went back to sleep at 11.
got online for a while then went to sleep til thursday

THURSDAY:
banned from computer. caught up on some homework. sleep.

FRIDAY (today):
sleep, sleep and more sleep.
got breakfast at elias, then finished up tutor's homework. still haven't got round to schoolwork though.

plans for saturday?
bowling @ e!hub, 2pm+ with family.
gna buy myself some new sandals and a new bag. and some other stuff too.

bo-ring -.-
obviously there won't be any pictures. unless you want to see the four walls of my bedroom.
been stuffing myself with food for something to do ._.
i know its unhealthy but... I'M BORED. screw it.
i'm probably the only person in singapore to look forward to mondays.

if you're reading this, thanks.
shows how much you want to know whats up with my life.
whether to jeer or confort me, i have no idea.
i might be doing more of this in future. keep your eyes peeled.

21st july 2009

2009-07-21T21:35:00.004+08:00

its hard to keep track of time when you're always moving around.

305 class photo for racial harmony day.
we got 100% of people wearing the costumes! HOORAY! sure-win liao.

gave mr yeong a surprise birthday party, and i spent zhunzhun $8.88 on his cake.
I WANT MY MONEY BACK.
lol
think he was kinda touched though.

& WALAO EH. i kena HFMD. at this time, when H1N1 is rampant.
XIASUAY. and i see the pics of the hfmd patients, is like as bad as the ones you see on ciggs.

but there's always a brighter side!

+ no school
+ no H1N1 (scarely immune bodoh. LOL)
+ i'm not dead yet -.-
+ purple fingernails = weak heart, not cancer
+ not terminal

on the other hand...

- no school
- scared infect until friends
- miss lessons
- quarantined
- at home nothing do
- look damn disgusting
- feel like crap
- cannot swallow
- people'll avoid me after i go back to school
- become the bane of dumb jokes

this list so fucking long.
WHY DOES EVERYTHING HAPPEN TO ME?
-.-
first H1N1, now this.
at least i can do another poem during my free time.
this time i'm gonna focus it on the inevitable... DEATH.
haha!

i'll hopefully be back next monday, on the 27th.
wish me health! :D
i don't wanna miss lessons & tests and all that. SIAN LA. screw life.

signing off blogger~

19th july 2009

2009-07-19T21:09:00.004+08:00

Vampire
-Nicholas Ong

i wake from this sudden sleep, pain throbs in my head
new emotions well inside me, a deep feeling of hate
i rise from my bed, my rest, my brook of solitude
feeling the cold winds wash against my body nude

wondering about this cold, i stand up and dress
then glance down to see my muscly chest
somehow, my body had undergone changes
reluctantly i glance up to look at the hall's mirrors

horrifying shock, a terrified howl, disbelieving fright
the mirror's reflected my bed, the walls, but i was nowhere in sight
a knock on the room's wooden door changes my course of focus
a young woman enters, her face the ephiphany of ignorace

despite resisting my urges, i lunge, whilst my mind screams for her to back
but before she had a chance to act, long fangs sink into her neck
cringing in pain, life ebbs away, the blood pools on the floor
looking down at the body, i shudder, then let loose a roar

guilt, remorse, washes over me, overwhelming fear
why has it come to this, am i now a monster?
plunging my fangs into my arm, blood splashes onto the mirror
but somehow, in some twisted way, this actually feels better.

got this idea from Edward Cullen from twilight, which i am currently reading
a vampire who doesn't want to be a monster
its not very fluent, but i like the last paragraph.
more tomorrow.
school tomorrow.
SIAN

//:
i hate this feeling. running back and forth, chasing after what everyone's thinking, only to find that i've been a step behind.
so i run. i chase. i attempt to catch up.
but in the end, nobody really tells me anything.
and i'm left running for the rest of my life.

july 18th 2009

2009-07-18T21:46:00.006+08:00

an iceberg on one side, a raft on another. a freezing domain in between.
its never a good feeling when you have to choose between two roads.
one that will guarantee you safety, or one that will bring you to new places?
i remember saying this before.
'flip a coin. heads or tails, at least there's a decision.'

god save me. bless this coin.

Werewolf
-Nicholas Ong

come and get me, i'll be waiting, everywhere you turn
i'll rip you to tiny shards, make your body crash and burn
i'll show you whats real power, put in the right hands
to evenom the blood, stop the heart, turn back time's sands.

i'm indestructable, unkillable, so how do you plan to win?
dig a hole, fill it with stakes, and then drag me in?
don't waste your time, i've read your mind, you're all out of plans
i'll drag you around, mile by mile, all the way to earth's ends

i'm faster than a car, stronger than a bear and stealthier than a spy
how in the world do you expect, to escape these clutches of mine?
admit it you, just drop back and die, give up on generations past
submit to me, beg my mercy, and i might kill you fast

i'm indestructable, unkillable, its impossible for me to lose
i've said this before and i'll say it again, those who attempted to kill me were fools
this is called real power, invincible when in the right hands
that which evenoms the blood, stops the heart, and turns back time's sands.

this is a poem i'm truly proud of. HAHA.
the idea was inspired by werewolf fenrir greyback from Harry Potter.
idk why he popped into my mind. next one will be on vampires, i guess.
time to research. sigh.

17th july - harry potter & the half blood prince

2009-07-17T19:11:00.003+08:00

why does everything follow when you go?

went to tm just now to watch hbf with axel, junhao, dean, and daniel jacob
LOL. emma watson/ hermonie granger is damn chio compared to previous shows.
my ratings for the show?
giving it 3.5 would be too decent.
2.5/5
the show hardly makes sense to those who don't read the book.
the plot is built up over 2 hours, and the frustrating wait is rewarded with brief action and meaningless scenes.
there wasn't even the great fight between the Order and the death eaters mentioned in the book.
screw it manzxzxzx. at least the cinematic effects were good.
now, i'm looking forward to the show
吓到笑
anyone wanna watch? i think it'll be great.

the trailer's here
http://blog.omy.sg/jackneo/archives/1736

which raises an interesting question.

do you believe in ghosts?

tag me & tell me what you think!

16th july 2009

2009-07-16T15:33:00.003+08:00

all i want is a good long chat. you and me both.
i'm not strong enough to admit how i feel.

school's boring.
the good thing is, i'm keeping awake during lessons now.

i'm determined to do well in my studies.
i don't care how much play time i sacrifice.
i want to be proud of myself for something apart from fighting.
i'm tired of being the jack of all trades.
i want to ace.

unfortunately my positive energy is used up faster than dean's dream car drinks oil.
LOL.

i need someone who's REALLY REALLY willing to help me.
cause i'm slow. i'm still trying to get my head around linear law. and chemical equations.
and about everything about physics.
):

gna revise my chem now. and finish mr yeong's a maths homework.
chinese? can't torture myself.
but must buck up to get into band 3. no more sleeping in class.

base + acid = salt + water
metal + acid = salt + hydrogen
carbonate + acid = salt + water + hydrogen

fate's thrown too many obstacles in my chosen path.
what if i go this far, just to realise i'm wrong?

15th july 2009

2009-07-15T23:01:00.002+08:00

too wary to make the first move.

nothing much to post.
recently i've been taking long afternoon naps and waking up feeling more exhausted than when i went to sleep.
tch -.-

woke up at 4am today cause of the mangrove thing and couldn't get back to sleep, damn tiresome.
IN THE END, CIP TRIP CANCELLED.
tmd. rain for what sia.
the thing got postponed to 5th august.
after school went fr basketball w/ junjie &co.
long time never play alr sia. now like kns.
afterwards went to daniel jacob's condo, saw chunyin there too.
bus-ed home via 89, then IMMEDIATELY conked out on the sofa
like, once my head touch the cushion i asleep already.

&thanks to everyone in facebook who help raise my value!
you guys rawks yo :DDD

LOL. and the song 'nobody but you' has been repeating in my head since mr goh took us to the computer lab.
WALAO EH. like broken recorder sia. keep playing and playing and playing.
dumbshit.

k, i'm off to sleep.
goodnight!

14th july 2009

2009-07-14T14:30:00.008+08:00

got this from andy's blog

CIP tomorrow. bo-ring.

i'm bleeping irritated with aravin ATM.

Aries - Aries
good
bad

Fire with a fire is a compatible combination although it produces a volatile, exciting and sometimes stressful atmosphere. Peace, quiet and relaxation will be difficult to achieve. If both people try to rule the roost, disputes and tension will result. When necessary, each will defend the other.
Boredom will seldom arise in this duo because both like to be active. When two rampant Rams spot each other across a crowded room and the sexual sparks start fly, they don't waste a second in bringing relief. After about a minute of social chit-chat, they'll drag each other off to the nearest secluded spot.
These two just can't get at each other quickly enough.The moment these two meet is a really red-hot rendezvous. A blazing inferno will envelop them as the powerful passion spits and sizzles, then burns with an incandescent glow. Desire will be distributed throughout this relationship. After all, Aries is one of the signs of sex. It means that they can never be platonic pals if one finds the other one attractive, because they'll want to act on it. But whether they're cheeky chums or lusty lovers, they'll enjoy doing all sorts of things together, from kicking a ball about in the back garden to cuddling up close in the middle of a field.

Aries - Sagittarius

Fiery Aries with fiery Sagittarius does not conflict. Both are independent, AND there must be some freedom. Sagittarius encourages enthusiastic outlook and honesty. Neither will tolerate the other being the boss. This couple will dance a fabulous fiery number that will warm both their hearts.They've got lots in common and will exude excitement and energy in delicious doses. Everything this couple do will be full of feeling and endowed with enthusiasm and their relationship will be overflowing with optimism.
If one of these folk feels down in the dumps, the other one will buck them up. They'll help each other out of any trials and tribulations they may tumble into and if times get truly tough, they'll stand by each other without a word of complaint. Life will be marvellous when cupid brings together an adventurous Arian man and a stunning Sagittarian girl, but their bank balance could hit rock bottom faster . This couple should do everything in the world together expect the shopping, because they'll both get so carried away that they could end up carrying out the whole shop.These two can be gorgeously grandiose and thoroughly theatrical. Both of them will be attracted by far away places with strange-sounding names, too and if they don't decide to live abroad, they'll always be off on travelling trips

ice age 3 : dawn of the dinosaurs

2009-07-12T22:17:00.005+08:00

Tired

i'm tired, too tired to keep holding on.
tired of reminiscing on times long gone.
tired of feeling guilty whenever i open my mouth.
tired of being labelled as a person gone south.
tired of society, news off the press.
tired of holding back this breath.
tired of everything i've strived to earn.
tired of keeping the wheels in turn.
i'm tired, too tired to bother about what everyone's said
that those memories of you were made up in my head.

-Nicholas .O
i remember someone requesting for an emo poem.
well, here it is. its a bit shabby though.

got back from tampines mall. i hate that place.
watched ice age 3 : dawn of the dinosaurs
was pretty good, kinda funny, and the plot obviously sucked, but thats cause its an animation.
a bit touching too, surprisingly.
i give it 3.8/5
school tomorrow. i don't know whether to be happy or sad.
i don't have time to go check up the horoscope readings right now, but i'll try to do so tomorrow, i promise.
and. tuition homework haven't finish yet. sian.

P.S
anyone wanna catch harry potter & the half-blood prince next friday?

goodnight,
and best of sleep,

12th july 2009

2009-07-12T10:51:00.002+08:00

for once, i'm lost.

http://www.findyourfate.com/compatibility/aries-compatibility.html
found this site out of boredom.
everyone out there, post your zodiac on my tagbox & i'll show how 'compatitable' the results are!

-

2009-07-11T22:35:00.002+08:00

i'm not feeling too good.
couldn't finish dinner, and now i have a terrible headache.
sigh.
watching chamber of secrets now, but very boring cus i've already watched it twice.
-.-
now, over here waste time lor.
goodnight world.

stephanie sun concert for AYG volunteers

2009-07-11T17:21:00.015+08:00

when god closes a door, he opens a window.
when he closes the window, find your own way out.

back from swimming with junjie, junhao & xiaopang.
got a little sunburnt, but nothing too painful.
overslept in the bus and ended up.. elsewhere.
yesterday was great!
the concert only sucked a little bit, cause i wasn't a fan of stephanie's music.
i got lost and ended up at the outdoor stadium instead of the indoor one.
walked over and wasted 30minutes
went home at 11, then went online.
wasted about 1 hour mashing a pic up to find out i used the wrong application.
lol. slept at 4+?
i'm still dead tired. nice weather to sleep sia. so rainy.
oh yeah. the pictures.

ahmad! on the mrt back home.

my kelian broken legged FRASIA. was too late to switch when i found out, so i'm gna stitch it back.

me, ahmad.

this is blur cause i was seated kinda far away. not cause my phone noob. LOL

yonglong! and thats my hand -.-

minhui, yonglong

now for the class stuff.

i love this photo. i mean, the two of us look great, the pose doesn't suck, hair aint messy, etc. only there's some guy in the middle ruining the whole thing.

GREEN~
farah, amirul

NORA!

CHUNYIN THE EARTHWORM!

DANIEL GOH!

juexin, eunice. dude in the middle's jingcong.

minhui (first time i saw her face in a photo lololol)

natalie the birthday girl

jasnyn

with that, i'll finish my post with a quiz from DEAN.

1. First thing you wash in the shower?
face?

2. What color is your favorite hoodie?
black. no contest.

3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
there was no last person i kissed. anyone wants it?

4.Do you plan outfits?
duhhh. i'm not some doof who can't pair two shoes together.

5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?
bored. MSG ME LAH FXCKS IT.

6. Whats the closest thing to you thats red?
my tounge

7. Do you say aim or a-i-m?
no, i don't

8. Tell me about the last dream you remember having?
its kinda ridiculous. i remember someone telling me,
'i know you want message me right?'
'sorry. my mum don't let me use handphone.'
no idea what that meant -.-

9. Did you meet anybody new today?
nope.

10. What are you craving right now?
for it to rain

11. Do you floss?
no, i brush my teeth.

12. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
caterpillars

13. When was the last time you talked on aim?
i didn't talk on it before

14. Are you emotional?
people say i am

15. Would you dance to the taco song?
never heard it before.

16. Have you ever counted to 1,000?
LOL. believe it or not, i did, once/

17. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
lick?

18. Do you like your hair?
yeah. its now rusty brown.

19. Do you like yourself?
kind of

20. Have you ever met a celebrity?
yeah, last night! LOL

21. Do you like cottage cheese?
NO

22. What are you listening to right now?
somewhere i belong - linkin park

23. How many countries have you visited?
idk. a lot, though my favourite was taiwan. cause of all the cute gals! :D

24. Are your parents strict?
they kind of don't care about me much

25. Would you go sky diving?
ABSOLUTELY

26. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush?
why should i

27. Would you throw potatoes at him?
i'll fry them and eat them in front of him

28. Is there anything sparkly in the room you’re in?
my eyes.

29. Have you ever been in a castle?
NO

30. Do you rent movies often?
NO

31. Who sits in behind you in your math class?
madiah

32. Have you made a prank phone call?
uhh.. yeah :x

33. Do you own a gun?
a toy one

34. Can you count backwards from 74?
who cannot sia

35. Who are you going to be with tonight?
<3

36. Brown or white eggs?
white

37. Do you own something from Hot Topic?
nope

38. Ever been on a train?
duh

39. Ever been in love?
who hasn't?

40. Do you have a cell-phone?

duh

41. Are you too forgiving?

yeah, but when i'm angry i get hot real fast.

42. Do you use chap stick?
nope

43. What is your best friend doing tomorrow?
find his girlf i suppose

44. Can you use chop sticks?
duh

45. Ever have cream puffs?

duh

46. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect?

duh. wait, what?

47. What was the last question you asked?

wait, what?

48. What was the last CD you bought?

i can't remember.

49. Boys or girls?

GIRLS, OF COURSE! i'm not a homosexual like pohsiang :O

50. What is your bus number for school?
81

51. Is your hair curly?

a little, though not perm-like

52. Last time you cried?
long time ago, happy to say.

53. Ever walked into a wall?
YES. this morning. i was half-awake, walking to the kitchen, then BANG

54. Do looks matter?
to me, yes

55. Have you ever bought anything from Pac Sun?
nope

56. Have you ever slapped someone?

uh, yeah. no wonder i'm single.

57. Favorite time of the year?
autumn & winter. or the rainy season in singapore.

58. Favorite color?
black, red

59. Are you sarcastic?
sometimes

60. Do you have any tattoos?
no

61. The last person you held hands with?
can't remember.

62. Do you sleep with the TV on?
nope

63. Where was your default picture taken at?

home?

64. Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people?

i hate three, exactly. mpt, soal, and naggy.

65. Do you like your life right now?
i like the way its going!

66. How often do you talk on the phone?
nobody ever calls me just to chat. i'm a lonely guy.

67. What is your favorite animal?
ironically, the dog. or the orca.

68. What was the most recent thing you bought?

a shirt?

69. Do you have good vision?

nope

70. Can you hula hoop?

YES!

71. Could you ever forgive a cheater?

depends on why the cheater cheated.

72. Do you have a job?
nope

73. Can you handle the truth?

i have to

74. What are you wearing?
my underwear and pants. interested for what.

75. Have you ever crawled through a window?
YES. in a one-storey house.

thats it! buh bye!~

10th july 2009

2009-07-10T13:52:00.004+08:00

'what you see is what you get'
-不潮不用花钱 - 林俊杰
now i'll be crediting the 'quotespeople'

i've made it this far, out to the ocean.
the ship's stern shrouded with haze.
the waters churn with cruel devotion
to keep the boat out of its bays.

guided by the night's north star,
i weave a road through this maze.
with overwhelming fear, i plough my path,
to escape Death's deadly gaze.

then a swirling chamber, a twisting pool
rises from beneath the seas
rising, to claim the ignorant fool
who's ventured into Sedna's knees

the whirlpool's eye burns with a bloody blue,
boiling with an icy rage.
to challenge the one who's entered his field,
and to close the chapter on that page.

finally the ship sinks, the whirlpool surges back
and the metal boat sinks down.
as my entire world becomes the abyss black,
i drown.

another lil' poem i made up to kill time.

super super bored -.-
idk if i wna go for the noob concert later.
i mean, all i did at the ayg thing was sleep anyway.

nothing much. i'll post again if i go to the concert.

9th july 2009

2009-07-09T18:08:00.002+08:00

deja vu.

woke up too early, but on the whole, my day still went smoothly.
oh yeah, happy birthday to natalie!
anyw. teachers all absent, nothing much to do.
tempted to talk and talk, but i want to buck up on my studies.
had some fun with a bottle of facial paint, lol.

my stamina totally sucks now. the shuttle run made me tired, and basketball gave me an uber dry throat. -.-

chunyin made darren toh angry during chemistry, & darren's reaction was kinda ridiculous.
stood up, slap chunyin, throw his own sweets, then run out of class.

2 things i wanna comment on.
1) there's finally some excitement in boring ol' 305.
2) a human shouldn't be treated like this ._.

after school met up with jj& co. to whitesands.
do you know how torturing it is not to laugh in the library?
strain until stomach pain.
RAMBUTANSAURUS. random shit. die die also won't forget.

bused home, now waiting for dinner and tutor to come.
gna bathe now. brb!

8th july 2009

2009-07-08T16:57:00.003+08:00

incase you were wondering what my title means, its simply written in morse.
translated, ILM.
or, i love me. HAHA. i'm trying to be optimistic~

k whatever. today was a below avg day for me ._.
first, i fell asleep in the toilet. when i woke it was 6 30am.
next, bus driver was fricking slow. made it to school at 7 20am.
then, realised it wasn't just a bad dream, and i had actually been swapped places.
back of the class again. BORING.
chinese& literature was simply boring.
new teacher sucks. sorry.
fell asleep in ms nah's class, nobody to talk to -.-
except for pohsiang, and i'm not going near him.
STAR, needed to describe the AYG experience.
i thought minghui did a pretty good job, and i was kickin' my legs up and relaxing, then teacher ask me to go up.
SHIT. all i did there was sleep. i mean, the whole job's like a one-man-show thing. why bother getting 4 people?
managed to squeak through and went back to my damned place.
speaking of one-man-show. STAR topic was on teamwork. epic.
forgot to ask teacher to swap back my place. _l_
daniel jacob came to my house after school to borrow my harry potter books.
paiseh ah noob. i dnt like talking on msn with visitors in my house. LOL
he went back soon, and my brother's went to LAN, and i'm stuck at home alone.

with the computer on.
and history erasable.
and no family filter.
*wink

LOL. just joking.
i'm effin bored. what do people do when they're bored?
sit around twiddling their thumbs?
i think i'm gonna practise my moonwalk again.
in memory of michael jackson.

k. now for one quiz by dean.

1)What's your favorite color gummy bear?- the transparent ones?
2)What is the sexiest part of the opposite sex's body?- face <3
3)Have you ever made up/sang a song for someone you cared about?- no songs. poems, got.
4)Ever had a song sang about/for you?- no. unless you wanna volunteer.
5)Is there a baby in the room with you right now?- no?
6)Do you know how to dance?- i've never tried before.
7)Where do you sing the most, in the car, the shower or other?- when i'm alone at home. like right now.
8)What is your favorite thing that is green?- green sucks. the only good green thing is grass.
9)What did your last text message say?- Bro whats the name of your video accelerator?
10)Boxers, briefs or boxer briefs?- all of em
11)What is your middle name?- Ong. really.
12)What is the way to your heart?- my amazing reluctance to trust
13)What do you smell like?- a person? i mean, what other ways can you smell? your eyes?
14)What's in your pocket?- nothing
15)Anything in your mouth?- that gummy bear i mentioned in q1. LOL
16)Ever hurt yourself playing Wii?- i didn't play Wii before. though i'm sure i'd injure it a lot more.
17)Do you have freckles?- no. pimples got a lot.
18)How many languages can you say "Hello" in? Konnichiwa! Ciao! Hi! Hello! 你好！li ho bo! aloha! howdy! thats 2 more than dean. LOL
19)What's the last movie you saw in the theater? transformers 2
20)Ever jumped/fallen/been pushed in a pool with your clothes on? unfortunately
21)Are you wearing any clothes that you wore yesterday? my birthday suit
22)Name a song that you know all the words to: just about every non-rap english song i have.
23)Are you in love with someone right now? i might be~
24)What's the last thing you watched on TV? the ultimatum
25)What's the last video game you played? monster hunter unite. boring alr.
26)Who is your daddy and what does he do? why don't you call him up and ask?
27)Can you do the alphabet in sign language? look at my title.
28)Do you have an uncle named Joe? nope. stupid question.
29)What word do you use when people pass gas? PFFFFFT. *snickers*
30)Do you wear glasses? yeah. four eyes are better than two i always say.
31)What can you hear right now? sugar - frgot artist name, but the song's damn addictive.
32)Did you feel better or worse or the same yesterday? better. then again, maybe not.
33)Ever been overseas? you say leh. DUH.
34)What are your plans for today? eat, sleep, drink, and stay alive.
35)How long have you had Facebook? since axel recommended it, last dec.
36)What was your favorite childhood show? pokemon. EH. LAUGH WHAT LAUGH. i loved the game as well.
37)Are you close to your siblings? sort of
38)What was your first job? waiter?
39)Do you bite your nails? i bite my cheek
40)Do you like your feet? bit too strong for my liking. look at what happened after i kicked irfan SO DAMN LIGHTLY twice. jitao $30 down the drain.
41)Do you sleep well at night? no. i'm racked by nightmares, sudden heating, and voices in my head.

Tag 1 person to do this:
the one reading this.

done! now must ration myself. only do quiz when really nothing else to blog about.
k, cya (:

7th july 2009

2009-07-07T16:42:00.010+08:00

obvious who wrote this. lol

dog, looks more like pig sia.

a footnote? haha. i still have it with me (:

cheok, yandao (:

LOL. this was taken at graffiti corner ??(idk what its called)

this was taken at the swissotel. HAHA. look at what those bunnies are doing!

first day of school since ayg was over.
damn boring.
that isolated place is as far from society as possible.
went to jj's house after school, then walked home.
that's it ._.
i wna watch harry potter & the half blood prince, orphan, and a whole lot of other shows ._.
gotta save up.

i'm hungry already. absolutely no food in my house. i'm sick of this place.
at least jj house can SPAM food lol. spam bread actually.
k, i'm going off now. tcs!

//finished 3/4 of the chinese holiday homework.
nabei. i need more time.

6th june 2009

2009-07-06T22:27:00.005+08:00

'never argue with an idiot. they bring you down to their level then beat you with experience.'
-
LOL. read this at some forum.
this one too,
'a good forum is like a miniskirt. short enough to draw attention but long enough to cover the subject'
-

yo. just came back home (:
ayg was kinda fun today.
me, yonglong & klinsmann were at the xbox 360 & ps3 slacking on the job.
hung out there til' 11+, then yonglong went to find his stephanie~~
pei-ed klinsmann to buy present for his classmate, then we go mrt there slack.
halfway suddenly brenna msg me ask meet her & jasnyn.
i think fr 3 seconds, then conclude, is like 50 : -25, town vs LAN
HAHA. jj you should know why. +him jitao -100 alr.
sorry ah (:
went to some buffet place to find that clique, then went to pizza hut cus the two girls were hungry ._.
LOL. one mouth = 2 minutes. haha!
then, they went shopping. damn sian, all over is shops fr girls.
but the first thing i thought, 'walao. next time bring money come here again.'
saw a lot of nice stuff, but no $$ -.-
&at one mrt station, got one person ask the two babes' if wna go for modelling. 'because you are so cute'
LOL. damn funny accent.
uh. went over to another shop, then buy more stuff, then went back.
bus-ed home at 7+?
had a great day, way better than yesterday.

it's late ._. so i'll post up the pictures next time.
i think i'll go back to school tomorrow. morning duty nobody doing also.
bit reluctant to go back, now that my seat's changed and all.
that place don't even have any friends sia. kns.

gna finish up all my homework tomorrow. lazy do the holiday homework sia -.-

k, i'm gonna sleep alr. goodnight!~

5th july 2009

2009-07-05T15:29:00.002+08:00

i've forgotten how to smile like i mean it.

got back from tiong bahru, went to help push wheelchairs for some disabled people
initially was boring, but got gradually better.
gradually, just a teeny bit.
anyw, 305's class blog is up,
www.justbeatit-305.blogspot.com
in rememberance of michael jackson, whom i don't really follow anyw.
i'm too tired to upload pics now.
haha~

and. i'd like to give some 'special' thanks.
first, to brenna, for whatever reason she stated in the tagbox. you're the best! (better give me a mention in your next post LOL)
second, to dean, for the new quizzes he got for me from his 2-year ago ex-crush. :D (you also. give me a mention lol)
third, to starhub for my lovely internet connection. (fook the lag)

the upcoming quiz is by dean's ex-crush

Who is your best friend?
since i don't have any, i'll go with my oldest good friend, KOHTIANSHEN

Do they have any nick names?
botak!

How did you meet them?
primary school.

How long have you known them?
hmm. since i was p2?

What is her/his birthday?
i don't know. LOL

What is your BFF's best quality?
aint got one

Do you know everything about them?
pretty much. he smoke, drink, dye hair, and hongster. LOL

What is your favorite thing to do together?
go bugis look at chiobu LOL. idk? just hang out?

Are you both in the same grade?
huh. this singapore leh.

Have you ever had your pics made together?
nope. thats just gay

Do you borrow clothes from each other?
not yet. different sizes

How far does your BFF live from you?
2 blocks away?

How often do you see each other?
once every now and then

Do their parents like you?
i think so. i'm so frickin cute! LOL :D

Did/Do you go to the same school?
primary school

What is their favorite store to shop in?
idk lol

Have you slept in the same bed as this person?
p6 chalet. sleep on top of him somemore. LOL

Have you taken a shower with this person?
NO

Do you have a special handshake?
no

Do you like the same sports teams?
no. i support liverpool. he manchester united.

Have you ever gone out of town together?
yeah

Do you have a best friend charm or bracelet?
no

Do they always have your back?
YEAH. 'eh. help me beat somebody leh.'

Do they have a cell phone?
duh

Do they have pets?
nope

Have you liked them as more than a friend?
thats just gross

What is their full name?
koh tian shen

What is your full name?
nicholas ong xi

Have they hurt you?
not yet

Have you ever cried with them?
no

Do they have a boyfriend/girlfriend?
yeah

Why are you best friends?
i have no idea lol. i thank god.

now for another quiz, LOL
also by dean.

1. What was the highlight of your week?
having someone tell me i'm adorable. LOL

2. Whose car were you in last?
uncle's

3. When is the next time you will kiss someone?
hopefully soon. LOL

4. What color shirt are you wearing?
not wearing shirt. topless.

5. How long is your hair?
kinda long. esp fringe.

6. Are you good looking?
nope, i'm adorable. LOL

7. Last movie you watched?
transformers 2. harry potter & the half-blood prince will be next >:)

8. Who were you with?
my brother's sitting beside me now

9. Last thing you ate?
eating. cheesecake. i'm sick of it alr.

10. Last thing you drank?
grass jelly

11. When was the last time you had your heart broken?
i can't actually remember, should be around last year.

12. Who came over last?
i forgot. i think it was my brother's friend.

13. Are you happy right now?
no. i'm bored & stuffy ):

14. What did you say last?
EH. STOP LOOKING AT MY COM LAH. NABEI.

15. Where is your phone?
beside me

16. What color are your eyes?
black. or uber dark green.

17. Are you left-handed?
hell no

18. Spell your name without vowels:
nchls (this seems familiar)

19. Do you have any pets?
dead hamster

20. Favorite Vacation?
no idea

21. What do you dislike currently?
what ah. an empty fridge, silent handphone, laggy computer and headaches.

22. What are you listening to?
nothing?

23. If you could have one thing right now what would it be?
chiobu on my other side ._.

24. What is your favorite scent?
chocolate!~

25. Who makes you happiest?
idk. long time since i smiled looking at someone.

26. What were you doing at midnight last night?
sleeping.

27. When is your birthday?
17th april. long past alr.

28. Who has the same phone as you?
no idea. lots of people actually.

29. Last time you went swimming in a pool?
long time ago.

30. Do you read your horoscope?
YES. ARIES IS REALLY HOT LOL. 'the most sexually attractive of the 12 sun signs' HAHA.
no wonder i'm adorable.

31. Where was the last place you bought something?
frgot. T1 i think.

32. How do you feel about your hair right now?
i wish it was a litle straighter

33. Do you bite your nails?
no

34. Do you have any expensive jewelery?
necklace 49.90
earring, ring, bracelet, all below $10

35. Do you have any expensive jewelery?
dont make me repeat myself

36. Myspace or facebook?
facebook. i don't use myspace

37. How fast have you driven a car?
never driven one

38. Have you ever smoked?
uh. no?

39. What was or is your favorite subject in school?
PE. or will be maths alr.

40. Do you have Verizon?
what's that?

41. What type of boy or girl do you usually fall for?
chiobu duh. must be good hearted also la.

42. Do you have any hidden talents?
i can read minds~ LOL.
i'm a really quick sprinter, and i fight well (:

43. Favorite Song?
inconsolable - backstreet boys

44. Do you like to sing at all?
yeah, though my voice can't hit those girly pitches.

45. Dream Job?
demon slayer LOL.
forest ranger?

46. Where does most of your family live?
pasir ris

47. Are you an only child or do you have siblings?
one younger brother. pain in the ass.

48. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
a little.

49. What was the first thing you thought when you woke up?
fuck. 4am only.

50. Do you drink?
yeah

51. Know any other languages?
a lot? can't speak them or listen though. RE: sanskrit

52. Ever write a coded message?
LOL YES

53. Have you ever been IN a wedding?
i've been TO a wedding, AT a wedding, and BACK FROM a wedding. never been the groom before though. LOL

54. Do you have any children?
yeah. 3. LOL. NO LAH. i'm only 15

55. Did you take a nap today?
nope

56. Who has the same birthday as you?
axel
victoria beckham (i actually checked this out)

57. Ever met anyone famous before?
YES LOL.

58. Do you want to be famous one day?
who doesn't

59. Any Pet Peeves?
i'm not sure what this is..

60. Are you multitasking right now?
i'm typing, eating, surfing the net, chatting and reading at the same time. pretty cool huh.

61. Do you like Britany Spears?
not much, don't follow her songs.

62. What is your least favorite chore?
wash dishes.

63. Last place you drove your car?
nowhere

64. Ever been out of the country?
duh

65. Where were you born?
in a hospital? Mount Elizabeth

66. Could you handle being in the military?
i'm hardcore.

67. What is your average cell phone bill?
i like never use until sia. again, thanks those up top.

68. Who are you thinking about right now?
shit, i wna go toilet.

69. When was the last time you laughed REALLY hard?
can't remember

70. How many pairs of shoes do you own?
exactly 6. LOL

71. Are your toes always painted?
NO

72. How many piercings do you have?
one.

73. What are you doing today?
pushing wheelchairs and dinner out.

74. Have you ever been gambling?
yeah. won about 18x the amount i put in

75. When is the last time you updated your page?
yesterday

76. Do you like rollercoasters?
love em. thrilling stuffs the best.

77. Have you ever been to disneyland or world?
nope

78. Do you have a favorite cartoon character?
uhm. you know ichigo? LOL

79. Last thing you cooked?
cheesecake. LOL. cooked would be fish & rice.

80. How's the weather?
raining. MAKES A GREAT CHANGE.

81. Do you e-mail?
seldom

82. What's the stupidest thing you ever did with your cell phone?
dropped it? LOL. most stupid is way too emberassing to put here.

83. Last time you were sick?
long time ago.

84. What states have you lived in?
singapore?

85. Do you wish you could move?
where to? everyone lives in tampines though ):

86. Do you take all the QuizPox.com quizzes?
who?

87. What is your dream car?
no idea.

88. Have you ever wanted someone you cant have?
why can't i have her? lol. yes i did.

89. If you could be anywhere right now where would it be?
toilet.

90. Are you happy with your life?
i'm content with what i have, but not exactly happy.

90 questions. nabei. who want do go do yourself. i really need to go toilet now. brb

july 4th 2009, sentosa trip

2009-07-04T20:35:00.005+08:00

imagination is more important than knowledge
- Albert Einstien
but apparently, most people don't have much of an imagination.

''You have the mindset of yourself always being right. You never felt how we felt. I’m sorry but you’ve got the definition of ‘a close friend” all mixed up.''
- quoted from axel's blog
hmmm.

moodless.
came back from sentosa just recently.
wanted to go find xiaopang thr, end up when me, junjie & junhao got there he alr left.
ended up eating our lunch somewhere else.
paper boats

spastic lol
jj's 'box'. jh's 'flattened sampan'. my 'sai'

sailed paper boats in the small pond, and i ended up paying both of them 20c cause i lose.
fuck bodoh. they 3 paper ea i 1 only.
something i want to ask you guys.
why do objects float?
'its all to do with density'
i also know density. i also know density is mass/volume.
so 'there's air below the boat'. that won't make it float?
elementary.

slacked around the area for awhile, and got damn fedup at one point.
why?

i talk one sentence, got 3 outcomes.
1) i get interrupted.
2) i get ignored.
3) one of them will shoot me, then another of them follow, end up i kena scolded until damn jialat.

so, i shut up.
then they still don't give me peace.
bit stupid really.
the instant i stopped hearing their footsteps on the leaves, i knew they run alr.
turn back see two people hiding behind a bush. -.-
worse, shut up alr still kena shoot.
don't get me wrong. they're great guys. they only don't know how to be sociable.
0% eq -.-

ended up going back to vivo at 7, then i went home myself.
wasted $10, got a terrible tan, and i'm still bored as all heck.
next time go out must jio more people -.-

tmr gta wake up early to go deliver rice to some old folks. uber boring again.
dont want go also cannot. cause i'm 'big & strong' so that means i HAVE to go over and help carry the food.

at least can skip duty tmr.
monday gta find some no entry sign for chunyin.
tuesday end of duty.
wed go back school.

boring shit. at least monday i think klins & yl dropping over in the morning.
anyw. i'm going off now. cya.

-

2009-07-04T09:41:00.005+08:00

ridiculously funny.
stupidly funny
and a 100% MUST WATCH!
esp 5.50 to the end.
just fyi , the first guy's name is 'you'
the other one's 'me'

i don't watch d gray man, but my brother recommended this &.. lol lets just say wtf

july 3rd 2009

2009-07-03T22:28:00.004+08:00

took this from jingheng's blog.
now i regret crediting him. LOL

1) Who was the last person you texted ?- cheok
2) Who was the first person that texted you today ?- iris? from the bus? LOL. ahmad.
3) Who was the last person you last met ?- more of a 'EH, what you doing here?' thing
4) Would you consider yourself spoiled?- i'm spoilt? i'm hardcore.
5) What time did you went to bed last night ?- 10pm. then was woken up again at 11.
6) Have you ever had a best friend who is opposite sex ?- i.. don't think so.
7) Do you want someone dead ?- out of my sight is enough
8) What are you thinking right now ?- nabuey. so much homework.
9) Who was the last person you took picture with ?- wait a mo'... axel. during the CCC
10) Do you wish someone was with you right now ?- YEAH. accompany me sleep :O
11) Who are you talking to right now ?- nobody?
12) What does the last message say?- last one's boring. second last's 'Nabei call me bimbo. Don't tell you whether got homework ah.'
13) Is someone in your mind ?- hmmm~
14) Who is complaining to you right now ?- me vs my mum. WALAO EH. LATER SLEEP WILL DIE AH
15) 10 people tagged to do quiz (not in order)-
(lazy change.)
1)Yonglong
2)Junhao
3)Axl
4)Xiaopang
5)Dean
6)Weilun
7)Irene
8)Jingheng
9)Weiting
10)Huiqin

16) When was the last time you chatted with 3 (Axl) ?- just now on msn
17) What if 5 and 10 quarrel (Dean, Huiqin)?- judoka pawnerzxzx
18) Who is 1 having a relationship with (Yonglong) ?- stephanie (sp?) immatured bodoh :P
19) Is 9 fierce (Weiting)?- i have no idea. DARE FIERCE W/ ME AH! :O
20) Is 3 & 4 studying at the same school (Axl, Xiaopang)?- yeah, same class also
21) Who is 2 to you ?(Junhao)- my link to linkin park
22) How did you know 10 (Huiqin)?- i frgot. during judo?
23) When did you last talk to 6 & 8 (Weilun, Jingheng)?- 1st july? got bad news, i change seat ):
24) Are you close with 7 (Irene)?- who?
25) How long have you know 1 (Yonglong) ?- since kunming trip?
26) What if 5 & 7 fight ?(Dean, Irene)- they like, fight all the time sia
27) How long have you known 9 (Weiting) ?- since i got into 305?
28) Say something about 2. (junhao)- something about 2.
29) Is 4 trustworthy ? (xiaopang)- he owes me money
30) Who is 1 to you ? (yonglong)- gay partner ._+
31) Do you argue with 7 (irene) everytime ?- i don't think so
32) How well do you know 5 (dean) ?- very well. we got an apartment and honeymooned in paris
33) Do you know things about 1 ?(Yonglong)- <3 gay partner. LOL
34) Is 2 & 9 schoolmates (Junhao, Weiting)?- yeah, classmates also.
35) What if 4 & 10 fight (Xiaopang, huiqin)?- for huiqin's sake i hope that never happens. on the event it does... pancakes anyone?

MORE QUIZZES. JINGHENG. GO FIND :D
Tag 10 people to do this quiz.
figure out the nicknames yourself.
1)AHBENG
2)4ZF
3)BIMBO
4)AHFANG
5)MUSHROOM
6)SMALL GOOD
7)SMALL FAT
8)IMMATURED
9)your mum
10)your mum
1) How did you meet no. 4? (AHFANG) auditionsea. she was noobed at that time.
2) Do you have any crush up there? yeah duh. both have the same name.
3) What would you do if you hadn't met no. 1? you see that scar over there? and that bruise? yeah, you get the idea.
4) What would you do if no. 6 & no. 2 were going out? (4ZF, SMALL GOOD) LOL. i wanna be there when it happens.
5) How did you meet no. 8? (IMMATURED) from kunming trip. we've become lovers since. LOL. he's gay.
6) Is no. 2 your good friend? (4ZF) uhhuh (:
7) Who is no. 8 best friend? (IMMATURED) no idea
8) Have you ever dated no. 1? (AHBENG) i'd love to, but... i'll have to breakup with HIM in two minutes flat. LOL
(where'd 9 go?)
10) What do you think of no. 6? (SMALL GOOD) i don't think of him, if i did i'd be gay
11) What do you think of no. 7? (SMALL FAT) this is worse
12) Who does no. 3 like? (BIMBO) no freaking duh. me.
13) Have you ever been to no. 8 house? (IMMATURED) no.. doorstep got.
14) Do you love no. 2? (4ZF) hmm. got any cash on ya?
15) Do you trust these people? yeah? but they're never around when i need help.
16) have you ever bought any presents for any of your 10 friends?
4ZF, BIMBO, SMALL GOOD. thats it.
boring sia -.-
MORE QUIZ. DEAN. YOUR TURN :D HELP ME FIND~~

thanks to the guy i took this from? lol

1. What is your full name?- Nicholas Ong Xi (& i'm a singaporean la.)
2. Do you like your name?- a little.
3. How long have you like the person you currently like?- `1314
4. Have you kissed anyone before?- not yet. and please don't be ridiculous and say 'your mum leh?'
5. Did you cry today?- from yawning only.
6. What are you doing at 8am this morning?- ayg? thinking what is going on in class at the moment
7. What are you doing an hour ago?- uh. tuition.
8. What you are currently doing?- chatting with some bean on msn
9. Who last texted you a message?- cheok
10. Have you told anybody you love them today?- nope. i don't even tell myself that.
11. Are you missing anybody right now?- YES. SOMEONE COME MY HOUSE PEI ME SLEEP. I'M INSOMNIC.
12. Any plans for tomorrow?- sleep at home. do homework.
13. What was the reason behind the last time you cried?- i frgot.
14. Anybody you want to be with right now?- yeah. a chiobu who can accompany me to sleep -.-
15. Have you kissed anybody whose name start with S?- no?
16. Name somebody who make you smile today, who and how?- LOL. junjie. 'later got one mercedes crammed with 20+ commando terrorist'
17. Name somebody whose name start with Z.- zoe
18. Which close friends of yours stay nearby to you?- tianshen
19. Do you prefer to call or text?- text! call exp leh.
20. Do you prefer today or yesterday?- yesterday. cause today ayg damn boring.
21. Can you live a day without television and handphone?- no... problem. nobody wna msg me anyw. HMMPH.
22. Are you mad about anything right now?- yes. NOBODY MSG ME. -.-
23. Do you ever think that relationship are worth it?- a little? all i've did was break up though.
24. Who was the last person you visited in a hospital?- i frgot
25. Who was your second last and last hug from?- who the heck hugged me last?
26. What does your last message in your hp says?- something about a maths, but its boring. go see above quizzes.
27. Define life.- if you want to know, pm me ._. this is too long to type out.
28. Do you hate anybody?- yes. that scum-of-the-earth
29. Who was the last person you called?- klinsmann?
30. Who usually send you the most text in a month?- nobody msg me _l_
31. Tag 10person to do this quiz.- who see until just do la. i want go sleep alr.

cya :D

july 3rd 2009

2009-07-03T17:50:00.003+08:00

friends & foes, it's a strange feeling.

my m&m cheesecake :D

slacking on the job

flags in full flight

rising

LOL. SG MASCOT

fierce bodoh :O

my bridge -.-

full view

i'm back. and simpy freaking hungry.
no, hungry's not the word.
from the F to the D,
FAMISHED.
i can never get enough food.
apparently i burn through calories the same speed your computer took to load this screen.
speaking of which, took me about one minute, one DAMNED MINUTE.
stupid internet. can't even watch stuff on veoh.

k, for the fun of it i've uploaded some pictures up top instead of below, so you'll be more aware of updates? HAHA.
was effin bored today. ahmad got fever, klins & yonglong both afternoon shift.
i was stuck there for approx 4 hours. doing nothing.
cmi at 11 and left my post.
went back to school and visited 305 AGAIN!
missed me much, guys? can't see my new (& not in the least bit better) sitting area.
i'm gonna remind mr goh to change my seat -.-
though i'll probably end up in front of the teachers table.

alright. nothing new, just a post to keep you guys entertained?
for the fun of it, i'll post a little 'joke' for ya

Little Janice was not the best student in Sunday school. Usually she slept through class. One day the teacher called on her while she was napping, “Tell me Janice, who created the universe?”

When Janice didn’t stir, little Johnny, a boy seated in the chair behind her, took a pin and jabbed her in the rear.

“God Almighty!” shouted Janice and the teacher said, “Very good” and Janice fell back asleep.
A while later the teacher asked Janice, “Who is our Lord and Saviour.” But, Janice didn’t even stir from her slumber. Once again, Johnny came to the rescue and stuck her again.

“Jesus Christ!” shouted Janice and the teacher said, “Very good,” and Janice fell back asleep.
Then the teacher asked Janice a third question. “What did Eve say to Adam after she had her twenty-third child?” and again, Johnny jabbed her with the pin.

This time Janice jumped up and shouted, “If you stick me with that thing one more time, I’ll break it in half and stick it up your ass!”

(eve probably had died by then. twenty-three. imagine her womb size. if she was eighteen and had one child every eighteen months, she'd be 53. bit old to have children, eh?)

k, i gotta find some handphone games now. AYG DUTY'S BORING. the only event i'm looking forward to is the closing ceremony.
cya!

july 1st 2009, POST 150!

2009-07-01T19:50:00.004+08:00

that exact instant, my whole day was turned upside down

back from a long day!
it wasn't really all that long, but..
i spent 3 pathetic hours at AYG duty wih ahmad.
bored half to death, PSP no battery, police all over, cannot play cards, and handphone nothing to use for.
the only asshole i msged to didn't reply me.
went AWOL at 10 30+, then trained to tampines.
walked all the way to eastview, then slacked outside the bubbletea shop & exchanged stories with ahmad.
LOL. got these kids from tampines north primary playing tekraw, damn cute
the ball kena this gongshan student, 'sorry lah', straight in her face
the ball kena me, the one who kicked it AND the one who picked it up both went 'sorry' and averted their eyes to the ground
AAAHAHA. EPIC, MAN :O

& around 11 30, humanities. ah sian. wanted to go 'visit' 305.
end up got people shouting from inside school ._.

12 30, went to the gate to stare in the class
damn fun, looking at all the cute lil' students inside doing their.. well STAR stuff.
HAHA
then 306 also. all come to the window, end up their form teacher come also.

'shit. eh ahmad, got teacher!'

LOL. aftwards went to junjie's house with zhenghao & zunjie, cus we pangseh anthony & derrick
ironic bodoh
his mum's great, even bothered to make food for us.
thanks auntie. LOL
gna chiong monster hunter united today, as well as DJ max black square.
old, i know, but there's nothing new coming up.
though i'm downloading transformers fr the PSP.
ended off my day walking back home, always thinking.

next monday. LAN, ice skating or training?
i think ice skating's out. training, i wna go badly, cause i've gotta 'live up to my rank' hehehe
LAN.. nothing much. L4D? i'll totally pawn them at versus.
i've been training on my brother's com :D
he teaching me theory & practical LOL.
'hunter wait for last man then attack. boomer team with smoker. smoker pull after boomer biles, not the other way.'
LOL. but i'm still noob at playing infected.
my fave is the hunter :D
POUNCE ATTACK. LOL
smoker durability worse than kns
boomer durability worse than smoker
TANK. IMBA. big & fat target. move so slow some more.

some stuff that really make me LAUGHOUTLOUD during L4D

'WITCH! 关灯!'
10sec later...
'WHO ALERT WITCH? NABEI, DIE LIAO LA'

'witch over there! behind the car!'
i throw the molotov behind the car, then run over...
'eh? where witch?'
*you have been incapicated*
witch was behind the lamppost

'tank, walao, dualenggong yi ge'

'TANK! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!'
LOL. this is really something. that time, my friend shout until the manager had to go over and 'shhh' him

'*** (LOL. a dude from my pri school who has BO) ! (boomer) WA, CHAO SI LANG (literally translated = smelly to death)'

'***, NI LAO PEI SI LIAO' (smoker reference, to a passive smoker friend LOL)

k, they're not really funny here, but in real life.. AAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
can't help cracking up every time

i'm still really tired, so no pics , HAHA
maybe after AYG? :D

//sadly. can't play transformers. gna get some person to update it for me.

30th june 2009

2009-06-30T20:16:00.005+08:00

can you please just get lost?

i'm dead tired aft today
gonna do my chinese assesment now, followed by my tuition homework. z, teacher never start on modulus at all.
and i need some angel to help me collect my homework, help me catch up on the lost subjects and all that.
ESPECIALLY E-MATHS. whats trigonometry?!
yawn*
there's tons of work to be done, but not enough time to do them all.
that's my life for ya.

goals for second semester:
DO NOT SLEEP IN CLASS.
DO NOT DAYDREAM IN CLASS.
SHOW MORE ENTHUSIASM IN STUDYING.
improve physics
improve chemistry
improve pretty much everything
get back my place as 1st in english to show ms siah who's boss. -.-
go for training more frequently? juniors need a good senior around :D

29th june 2009

2009-06-29T20:00:00.005+08:00

in you i saw the person i once used to be.
was i really such a scumbag?
yes, i've changed. but you're changing me back.

went for duty today? haha
no idea what was going on in school, made me crazy
i'm desperate to go back -.-
since tomorrow's a day off, i'm going to school!
no idea if i'll be welcomed by the teachers, or blacklisted.
since i've.. skipped every tuition class they held.
and the one time i tried to get in.. ah well.

in one word, i sum up the process of duty
BORING.
though i got a little/thoroughly fed up w/ yonglong & klinsmann at one point -.-
hey. i'm only human.

anyw.
told mr zaihan i had something on, and me & yonglong left at 4
when duty was supposed to end at 7
sorry, but i really can't find time to upload pics.
asap, k

now i need to find out everything that's happening. sigh, i hate skipping school.

any teachers changed? places swapped? (i know i'm sitting in front of mr goh fr physics alr)
timetables rearranged? RECCESS LENGTHENED?! (k this is 0% chance)
homework? new lessons? anyone helped me collect work?

-.-
i'm going off now. cya

28th june 2009

2009-06-28T20:14:00.005+08:00

just came back from junction 8,
transformers : revenge of the fallen
ROCKS
5 stars easily, it deserves 6
but the plot is a little.. off?
i can't place it but the show doesn't seem right.
anyw. it was still fantastic!
man, i love optimus prime's fighting moves. the jungle scene was my favourite, though i really didn't expect him to die.

his swords are like, WOW. slice through metal like jelly
some of th more 'wtf phrases' in the show

'ah, heck. i change sides, i'm an autobot now.'
LOL!

'please, i wanna be an autobot too, ok, huh, warrior girl?'
'what'd you just let him do to your leg?!'
CLASSIC BODOH.

'i'm sick of your ugly face!'
'my ugly face? we're twins, you (******?)!'
ROFL

& i can't remember the next one, but it from was the butcher when he was under the robot's balls

'it took all of that to tell me you loved me'
'well, you said it first'
DON'T do this to your girlf's lol

another hotass metal dude was ironhide
sadly he didn't appear much, but he's the only autobot that looked like a decepticon, so i might have missed him
HIS GUN PWNERZXZX

k, i'm signing off here. skipping school tomorrow, sigh. lag of homework like wtf.
tcs.

27th june 2009

2009-06-27T22:05:00.004+08:00

most people can't see past a pretty face.

all right, today was like,

fcuking
epic.

27th june is officially anti-lol day(not). so i'll type out my post without using that word.
no la, i just wna try one post w/o writing lol in it.

// its torture i tell you.

woke up at 10am and my mum was practically smacking me awake
TUITION STARTS AT 10 30am!
i jumped out of bed and slammed my head into the ceiling.
***
new tutor was great, but a little too old and man-ish for my type
(it's stressful i tell you, not using that word)
but he teaches even better than the previous one
AND, he's setting this year's O-paper
well, he's part of the team.

anyw, went to white sands aft tuition to get ingredients for baking a.. cheesecake?
and managed to build a WOOHOO tower bridge. i'll post the pics up next time as my phone's charging.
went back home and assembled 1/4 of the masterpiece, then suddenly remembered that i needed to go over to 201 to meet for homework marathon.
i was thinking 'aiya, only got junhao, can slack awhile'
(scream of anger*)
until i found out a lot more people were going.
hounded the missing worksheets like wtf, and still couldn't find them.
first time i'm grateful for ayg duty.
(AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH)

got a fcuking epic msg from junhao
'where you? we all here already'
when i got there only got him + brenna + weiting
&^&%$@^ -.-

on my way there, another fcuking epic thing.
brenna called.
'dog ah. where you?'
'走过来了'
'HAR? 你不来了?'
'i walking over'
'oh cheyyyyyyyy. walking over. *weird laugh* k, bye'
kiap

(RAAAAAH )
end up very miserable team.
junhao, daniel goh, brenna, weiting, and miserable me
ALL DON'T KNOW HOW TO DO A MATHS.
waste of time, go there sit 1 hour go back
haha, idk why i talk so loud also :O
excited to see evryone i guess.
++you have no idea how great it is to be finally able to talk to your friends after you spend 2 weeks w/o them -.-
(some friends. i in quarantine also nobody msg me -.- HMPH. )

bus-ed home alone, then completed my WOOHOO tower bridge.
fingers splintered like wtf alr.
pics next time!
&now i'm waiting fr the cake base to settle. then.. >:) FOOD.

cutting my hair tomorrow, then ayg duty. first week hopefully not much homework.
guys, must collect for me hor. :D

on a more serious note.
two questions that have been really hard for me to answer.

'are you willing to die for your loved one?'

easy enough. but. if its changed?
1- 'are you willing to live, suffer as a handicap, and be heavily disfigured for your loved one?'

next is more of a role play.
2- 'you're running for your life, being chased by a tiger. your crippled friend is ahead of you, but he can't make it far enough to the car. but if you slow down to help him, both of you might die. what will you do?'

my answers..
1- absolutely. ive mulled this over for a long time before oming to this conclusion.

2- help him. attempt to stall/ fight off the tiger while he gets to the car. pray that he gets to the car and rams it into the tiger.

&hey. the phil footballers are in the newspapers! its cool to recognise someone in there haha.
now there are approx 370 people down with h1n1? one person per day for a year.
thank the gods, its not fatal. hopefully it won't mutate too.

i've gotta get the mechanic whisk -.- my arms are damn sore.
k, i'm off.
cya :D

i hate saying goodbye
sorry if i seem rude to end off every sentence without it.
ah. no wonder i'm single.

-

2009-06-26T18:12:00.004+08:00

so now. am i a puppet?
or someone to give a damn about?

26th june 2009

2009-06-26T07:58:00.006+08:00

'But I don't want to go among mad people'
'Oh, you can't help that. We're all mad here. I'm mad. You're mad.""

wtf. michael jackson dead?
http://news.sg.msn.com/topstories/article.aspx?cp-documentid=3411337
he's too young to die. though i don't follow his songs much but seriously.
this was the last thing i expected to see upon logging into msn.
RIP

anyw. i haven't touched my homework AT ALL. & there's an epic (with a capital E) pic i wanna show you guys. but that'll come at the end of my post.

i've had another weird dream this morning, involving a lift, some stranger, & a table.
not gna elaborate cause this dream is just FREAKY. i have no idea why i dreamt it up.
as a result, i woke up at 8+, when my usual waking time is 10.
i have totally no idea what i'm gonna do later, hopefully junhao'll wake up and go homework marathon with me.
also, today's the last day i'm trapped at home. i have no idea to be happy or sad, but.. i have to skip training later. why? i just realised my left thigh bone is totally jarred when i twist it in a certain direction.
which means no sweeping, no ground work, and definitely no sparring.
i blame the stupid crash.
so. whats new?

firstly, michael jackson was said to have died of a cardiac arrest.
the only thing that shocked me quite as much as this one was hearing 'steve irwin got killed by a stingray'
wtfwtfwtfwtfwtf. this was truly sad. he's only 50+.

secondly, i gotta skip school fr a long time. but you probably knew that alr.

thirdly. my mh just reached rank 3! WOOHOO. TIGREX FTW YO.

lastly. the epic pics i wanted to post?

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- LOL. MR YEONG! SO CUTE BODOH.
credits: junhao's msn pic

since they demanded it...
http://www.alice-in-wonderland.net/
credits for the subquote at the top

k, ta! i'm gonna go rest my foot now. cya

25th june 2009 still. QUIZZES!

2009-06-25T15:28:00.006+08:00

k, do this if you want.
if you DO happen to do it, TAG ME and tell me yeah. its tiring checking everyone's blogs :x

1. aaron
2. aloysius
3. andy
4. axel
5.brenna
6. dean
7. huifang
8. jingheng
9. junhao
10. anyone else who wants to do this quiz

1) How do you know 1? (aaron) in the plane to kunming, he went up to me and asked 'what's your name, tall fuck?' LOL :P
2) What would you do if u never met 2? (aloysius) i won't get bullied :x
3) What would you do if 3 and 4 dated you?(andy, axel) hmm. any of you rich? :D
4) Would 5 and 6 make a perfect couple? (brenna, dean) LOL, go ask either of them :x
5) Do you know anything about 8's family? (jingheng) not much -.-
6) What do you think of no. 9? (junhao) LIKE TO SHOOT ME. -.-
7) What language does no. 2 speak? (aloysius) uh, english, chinese, hokkien :D
8) Who is 1 going out with? (aaron) HE NEVER TELL ME. -.-
9) How old is 4? (axel) 15, AND HE'S A LOT OLDER THAN ME. (2 hours?) :D
10) Who is 6's favourite singer? (dean) *me duh.* LOL, TERIYAKI BOYS :x
11) Would you date 1? (aaron) no money no talk LOL :)
12) Is 10 single? (anyone else who wants to do this quiz) ONE of them has to be attatched ._.
13) What is 9's last name? (junhao) chong? or was it -ism? :x
14) Would you consider being in a relationship with 1? (aaron) why repeat this question? -.-
15) What school does 7 goes to? (huifang) nan chiau secondary :D i clever right?
16) What do you like about 3? (andy) the way he says '**** you' :P
17) Would you date no 5 if he/she ask you to? (brenna) IF she ask me to :x
18) What is no. 10 to you? (anyone else who wants to do this quiz) my best friend, girlfriend, BFF, tiongxim partner, best man, to-die-for-person, and the only person i have eyes for in the whole world. LOL 10's a nobody. :D
19) Do you love no.1? Is he/she special to you? (aaron) LOVE? no. unless.. $$ :x
20) What is no 2 fav football team? (aloysius) nicholas FC LOL. they were kicked out of the league cause it was unfair to the other players to keep coming in second -.-
21) Is no 7 cute? (huifang) why don't you ask her? LOL. never see her in real life before. :D

TOP 10 THINGS THAT PISS ME OFF

1) people torturing animals- WHY WOULD YOU EVEN DO SUCH A THING. DID THEY DO ANYTHING TO YOU? leave them alone la fxcker

2)untidiness- of this i'm a vitim ._. better put *cleaning up* - cause it just takes so damn long! and then i'll find some long-lost treasure and spend 30 mins reminiscing, then remember i need to tidy up my room. x5 times.

3)the time!- don't you just hate it when it slows down by so much just before an oral exam? or a dentist visit? or... you get the idea.

4)people who ignore me- i'm talking to you damnit. LISTEN TO ME. OI! I'M TALKING TO YOU! LOOK OVER HERE! -.- simply a damned waste of time, as though i don't have enough to be doing.

5)people who question orders- etc.
'write that down'
'why?'
'just write it'
'but why must write?'
'WRITE IT'
'wait, write for what'
'FCUK YOU LA, JUST DO IT'
'z, no need shout right, asshole'
-.- simply gets under your skin, doesn't it?

6)those who judge others.
there's a HUGE difference between 'this exam is hard' and 'i think this exam is hard.'
one is solid fact. the other is your opinion. what makes you think your opinion is fact?
'you suck la. the quiz so easy also don't know how do' &
'i thought the quiz quite easy what. which one you don't know how do?'
see the difference?

7)when people try to make me eat vegetables (no elaboration)- its been a whole 8 years since i've eaten veg willingly.

8)idiots who laugh at those who read books- whats wrong with reading? its a hobby right. then what, just stay at home whole day sleeping?

9)liars- please. just the unsweetened, hard, solid truth. no white lies either.

10)fakers- those who act like they're great and know everything.
there's nothing wrong with being ahhai right.

(sorry if i sound serious lol)

this is a very lame 'conversation style' quiz

1. Hi! What's your real name and nickname? the name's nicholas
2. Interesting... what's your current age? 15?
3. Uh huh. What's your favorite food? LOL. HOKKIEN MEE
4. And your favorite drink? cappuccino :D but plain water's great too
5. Confession time! Who's your crush/lover? LIKE I'M GONNA TELL YOU?
6. Aww! Have you two kissed yet? no freaking duh
7. Classic question! What's your favorite color?black & red
8. Who's your favorite author? D.J MacHale, i guess
9. Now what's your biggest fear? worms ._.
10. *stifles a giggle* I'm not laughing *bursts out laughing*...Wh-what? (<

25th june 2009, last day of the bloody quarantine

2009-06-25T11:38:00.016+08:00

it's been quiet lately. too quiet. but i like it that way.

YES. TODAY'S THE LAST DAY I'M STAYING AT HOME.
though the holidays are over anyway -.-

i wna go watch transformers ): everyone all like say damn nice.
cant wait for sunday :O
for the first time in my life.
mum got another tutor fr me as she wanted me to get used to another tutor's teaching style. cause my old tutor was leaving for NS soon.
sigh. now tuitions are on saturdays.
hope th tutor's a young female one >:)
LOL. just kidding. anyw, as you can see i've been busy uploading the photos from malacca.
i've deleted a ton of them, and this is all thats left.

day 3 (sorry lol)

the nonya stuff we bought. even here you can see how hot the sun was.

look at the food!

day 2
(handphone no battery on day 3)

doughnuts ~~
tasted great.

k, this was the coconut i plucked
on it reads
'this coconut is the property of Nicholas'
(tear upon dotted line)

i cracked it open using.. a rock, and suprisingly, the flesh was SWEET.
the juice tasted different, but only cause it was a young coconut
next time you're thirsty and hungry, give me $1 and i'll get one for you! :D
(some fcuked-up malaysian street idiot offered ONE coconut for RM25
nabuey. see people singaporean can bully ah. i jitao 'wa siao. so expensive. dont want alr lah.' then the guy look at me like wtf. dickhead.)

amused myself by splatting.. that small yellow thing? on the pavement. this is the result!

chicken rice ball!
NOT RECOMMENDED. the rice is white rice, not tasty at all.
its hard, cold, and has no 'chicken-rice taste' at all.
-2/5

beautiful scenery eh? as compared to sg, with boats everywhere you look.

the seafood spread, and thats nasi lemak you're looking at.
only had some rice and chilli, but the first time i eat plain rice until so happy.
LOL. it does taste that good. i downed 4 packets easily

day 1

the car crash -.-
the window shattered, then broke when my head hit it.

the DENT.

the poor victim ._. my uncle's a lousy driver tsk.
good thing the baby wasn't killed

its a long way down if you fall ._.

i'm currently feeling very f-ed up

-the L4D cd i bought was version 1
NABUEY. PIRATED ALSO UPDATE LA.
-the only reason i was released early for quarantine was so i could go back for the ayg duty.
hope i get a mild flu/ common cold.
-I WANT TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL AND SEE EVERYBODY AGAIN ):
i actually miss 305 a little lol
-my studies suck alr. now i have to skip school. AND cross country (k i'm not complaining about the cross country, BUT MY STUDIES LEH?)
-there's training tomorrow. i may have to skip that for AYG. 2 hours swap for 8 hours. walao eh.
-mr kahar hasn't replied whether there's duty or not. if there isn't and i go, i'll waste 2 hours. if there IS and i DIDN'T go, i'll get scolded.
-nobody message meeeeeeeeee ): so damn sian at home. lifeless computer.

now i'm off to... uh. find a version of L4D 2 CRACK.
screw the law. anyone wna play?

k. now you can get lost. thankyou!

24th june 2009, still under quarantine

2009-06-24T09:23:00.003+08:00

tagged by jasnyn
(HAHA ANDY.)

btw. Q14, if you don't wna do it, ITS FINE WITH ME.
i don't want people flooding my tagbox and swearing at me.

'Torturous Biography'
1) Beside lips, where is your favourite spot to be kissed? - i have no idea
2) How do you feel when you woke up this morning?- bored
3) Who was the last person you talked with?- i forgot
4) Would you consider yourself spoiled?- very
5) Would you donate blood?- if it was urgent
6) Have you ever had a best friend of the opposite sex?- i dnt know. hey, any girls wna be my best friend?
7) Do you want someone dead?- too many to count
8) What does your last message say?- so this sunday go watch transformers?
9) Lost someone special?- yeah
10) Do you wish that there was someone with you right now?- yeah
11) What time did you went to bed last night?- 12. then i stayed up till 3
12) Is someone in your mind?- yes
13) Who was the last person you texted?- my cousin
14) 10 people tagged to do this quiz:
1. aaron
2. anthony
3. axel
4. brenna
5. dean
6. huiqin
7. huifang
8. irene
9. jingheng
10. junhao

15) Who is 2 having a relationship with? [ anthony ]- single
16) Is 3 a male or female? [ axel ]- male
17) If 7 & 6 get together, would it be a good thing? [ huiqin, huifang ]- i think their parents will be devastated
18) What is 1 studying about? [ aaron ]- no idea, a maths?
19) When was the last time you chatted with 5? [ dean ]- yesterday
20) Is 4 single? [ brenna ]- no idea
21) Say something about 2? [ anthony ]- pangseh kia
22) What do you think of 3 & 6 being together? [ axel, huiqin]- I dont think they know each other.
23) How would you feel if 6 & 7 fought? [ huiqin, huifang ]- read above answer
24) Do you like 3? [ axel ]- my bfadm
25) What was your:
1. Last beverage: water? best of the best lol
2. Last phone call: by MOH, to.. oh hey i didn't call anyone
3. Last text message: frgot lol
4. Last song you listened to: a little too not over you
5. Last time you cried: frgot
6. Dated someone twice: um... :x
7. Been cheated on: i think so
8. Kissed someone and regretted it: i've never kissed before
9. Lost someone special: i think so
10. Been depressed: yeah
11. Been drunk and threw up: not yet
List three favourite colours:
12: Red
13: Black
14: White
This year have you: [ 2009 ]
15. Made a new friend: loads
16. Laughed till you cried? nope. laughed till stomach pain got.
17. Met someone who changed you? not yet
18. Found out who your true friends were? yeah. nobody is.
19. Found out someone was talking about you? yeah
20. How many kids do you want to have? 3-4 :D i like kids
21. Do you have any pets? a dead hamster. it lived for 4 years ):
22. Do you want to change your name? whats wrong with Nicholas?
23. What did you do on your last birthday? dinner?
24. What time did you wake up today: 6.20am, 9am
25. What were you doing at midnight last night? :x PSP
26. Name something you cannot wait for: my own laptop in my own room without my brother kaypo-ing every now and then
27. Last time you saw your mother: yesterday
28. What is one thing you wish you could change? the scars on my back & face
29. What are you listening to right now? haru haru (go listen! its nice :D)
30. Have you ever talked to a person named tom? who?
31. What's getting on your nerves right now? QUESTION 31 ONLY. and this quarantine.
32. Most visited webpage: google :D
33. Whats your real name? your father
34.Nicknames? gougou lol
35. Relationship status: single
36. Zodiac sign? aries ftw yo
37. Male or Female? male
38. Elementary? meridian
39. Middle School? east view secondary
40. High school/College? NIL
41. Hair colour: black & rusty-red
42. Long or short: too long
43. What do you like about yourself? my build lol
44. Piercings? ear
45.Tattoos: none
46. Righty or Lefty? right handed
47. First Surgery? 4 years old
48. First piercing? ear
49. First best friend? i frgot
50. First sport you joined: soccer
51. First vacation: genting
52. First pairs of trainers? how can i remember..
Right Now
53. Eating: nothing
54. Drinking: my saliva lol
55. Im about to: cry. 55th only? damnit.
56. Listening to: why this one again. no songs in your playlist ah.
57. Waiting for: chiobu girlf :D no lah. this quiz to be over.
Your future:
58. Want kids? yeah
59. Get Married? if the time's right
60. Career? RAMBO. uh, conservationalist? or something that involves wildlife & money.
Which is better:
61. Lips or Eyes: eyes
62. Hugs or Kisses: if its sincere, both are great
63: Shorter or taller? middling height
64: Older or Younger? younger duh
65. Romantic or Spontaneous? spon what? romantic
66. Nice stomach or Nice arms? arms
67. Sensitive or loud? sensitive
68. Hook-up or relationship? relationships, though hook-ups are more interesting..
69. Trouble Maker or Hesitant? trouble maker
Have you ever:
70. Kissed a stranger: no
71. Drank hard liquor? no
72. Lost glasses/contacts? no
73. Sex on first date: no
74. Broken someone's heart: ..
75. Been arrested: YES. damnit.
76. Turned someone down: yeah
Do you believe in:
77. Yourself: a little
78. Miracles: yeah. look, i survived my first ever car crash.
79. Love at first sight: it happens
80. Heaven: yeah
81. Santa Claus: i think i did an extract of this quiz before.. no
82. Angels: a little
83. Had more than one girlfriend/boyfriend at a time? ...
84. Did you sing today? no
85. Ever cheated on somebody? ...
86. If you could go back in time, how far would you go? once upon a time
87. If you could pick a day last year and relive it, what would it be? 1st december LOLOLOL
88. Are you afraid of falling in love? nope
89. Posting this as 90 truths? dream on man. i'm posting this as 'torturous biography'
90. Love yourself? a little

23rd june 2009

2009-06-23T02:24:00.002+08:00

我就是死也不要去做ANDY的QUIZ. :D

Name a friend from A-Z!
A: Aaron
B: Brenna
C: CZF Axl.
D: Daniel jacob
E: Elaine
F: Fcuker :D
G: Gary Pang Kok yong
H: Huifang
I: Irene
J: Junhao
K: Koh Tian Shen
L: Lim Wenkai
M: Minhui
N: Nicole
O: Osborn
P: :D
Q: :D
R: Rai Weiling
S: :D
T: Tan Yap Teck Anthony
U: :D
V: Vishnu
W: Weiting
X: XiaoPang
Y: Yonglong
Z: Zoe

1.Can R and S be together in BGR? (Rai Weiling, :D)- i have no idea
2.How is L related to you? (Lim Wenkai)- he's not
3.Does Y know Z? (Yonglong, Zoe)- nope
4.If C betrays you, will you kill him/her? (CZF Axl)- my BFADM leh! LOL
5.If K steals your boyfriend, What will you do? (Koh Tian Shen)- he attatched alr.
6.If B tells you that he/her have a crush on you, what will you do? (Brenna)- no money no talk LOL
7.Will/Did you and M get into a fight? (Minhui)- i can't get along with anyone, so.. its a matter of time
8.Who does K have a crush on? (Koh Tian Shen)- his girlf! whatshername
9.If L calls you a bitch, What will you do? (Lim Wenkai)- he dare? i slap him (:
10.What's the relationship between you and E? (Elaine)- old audition friend i think
11.Who does Z love? (Zoe)- korean dramas
12.Who is I's best friend? (Irene)- from reading others' blogs, i deduced weiting
13.What colour does Y like? (Yonglong)- light pink LOL. idk?
14.Where does F live? (Fcuker)- geylang serai
15.Did you and C have a fight before? (CZF Axell)- uhh, nope!
16.Who is H's best friend? (Huifang)- me. lol, i have no idea
17.What can you say about T? (Tan Yap Teck Anthony)- buay steady
18.If J tells you he/she has a crush on you? (Junhao)- uh. weiling. save me.

22nd june 2009

2009-06-22T22:38:00.003+08:00

people say the instant before you die, your life flashes before your eyes.

i'm back from malaysia
it was fun, but for the atmosphere around, i'd have been better off in singapore with $30 for the 3 days.
since i've just gotten my new L4D cd, (my bro's hogging the other one) i'll make this short and sweet.

first day,
woke up and prepared myself at 5am, left house at 6
went over to malaysia without incident..
at approx. 11am, a car crashed into the car i was in
my head banged against the window and i blacked out for a few seconds
then, i saw my brother crying, the window completely shattered, and some malaysian kaypos crowding around
fortunately, nobody was hurt very much
now everytime i see a car turning my direction i get scared.
reached our destination, the casurina condominium
thats what they called it.
me and my cousins named it the 'run-down HDB flat'
go in, the lobby bench broken, no aircon, rooms full of lizard shit, and cockroaches everywhere
lifted a coconut from their hotel tree, and opened and ate it.
it was sweet and VERY FRESH.
headed over to the chendol shop, and their chendol is the best i ever tasted
even had free fruits for you to pluck
went back to the hotel, where i slept on the sofa, since there were no extra beds

day 2, sunday
fathers day.
went for lots of durian (lol)
shopping! at the malacca megamall is really shop till you drop
bought lots of stuff, but i can't help feeling it would have been a lot more fun if i had gone shopping with my friends instead of my family.
on the other hand... $$
still can't find any schoolbag, cause the one i'm using now is too flimsy
got calls from the MOH and EVSS telling me that i'm... quarantined
but i was in malaysia.. so uh-oh
reason is, one of the philippine AYG players tio H1N1
so all those who were in contact with them had to stay indoors til sunday.
someone msg me please ): i'll die of boredom at home.
a simple 'yo, whats up?' will make my day
at night went to Joker Walk, there is seriously crowded
and the air simply radiated heat
i was sweating even though i wore a vintage tee
bought a new earring, then went back to the run down HDB
at night, my mum came and gave me a blanket.
the blanket totally sucked
i was fine one moment, after the blanket was put on me, my skin erupted with rashes
that bloody blanket practically was made of bedbugs
stupid hotel manager, cannot even provide simple lodging.
hope YOU kena langa by car.

last day, monday, today!
woke up RED.
my face got a lot more pimples, sian.
took revenge by throwing paperballs into the swimming pool
LOL. childish sia. but damn fun.
THE SWIMMING POOL, NABEI.
the size of my house toilet nia.
went to Jusco, got my first body massage, lol
damn shiok, but also a bit.. disconcerting
how many 'craaaaaaaaaaaaaak's can my body produce!?
went to johor, switched back the cars, and my uncle had to pay for the damaged window
my handphone actually lasted 2 hours on 12% of battery!
sony ericsson ftw man.
pics next time, since i'm charging my phone
k, off to bathe now. L4D in a mo.
goodnight, world!

19th june 2009

2009-06-19T12:58:00.001+08:00

LOL
came across this on some website, and it made me lmao.
i'm SO gonna watch this show, HAHA

18th june 2009

2009-06-18T07:58:00.003+08:00

fcuk you to hell.
life was great before you.

i've got some good news and bad news,
lets start off with the bad news, k

*foreboding music plays*

im going to malaysia on saturday, which is the 20th
sad sia. i miss singapore like anything.
i'm gonna miss my bolster, my pillow-that-acts-as-a-bolster, and my lovely bed
my friends? not so much :P
4 days of solid hell, stuck with my brother and cousins, who only play with my brother anyw because of the age gap.
AND. they enjoy blasting my music, for some reason.
sian sian sian

good news is more for myself!
i'm finally able to notice other girls!
i've probably gotten over everything thats happened alr.

// back from ayg. is like, sian to the MAX.
at least got other evss people, i think if i one person i will give them back the shirt & quit.
had to entertain the philippines, pakistans, saudi arabians, and some other team i dont know.
and thats just for the soccer rounds.
we're all cheering for philippines yo, cause they're the friendliest.

leaving for malacca on saturday, please tag & think of me (:
lol. macham memorial sia.
touch wood. *smacks tabletop
k, gotta go.
training tomorrow, and i'm so damned tired.

17th june 2009

2009-06-17T08:16:00.014+08:00

i've told you before.
i'll be there waiting when you fall.
to enjoy myself, watching where you've gone wrong.
you know, as i know, that i didn't do anything.
you did. we've changed, no longer who we were once upon a time.
you know who you are.

lmao yesterday with junjie, junhao, zhenghou & xiaopang
met them at school kopitiam, then went over to xiaopang house
on the way, zhenghou & junhao were discussing the finer points of SAW
hearing the torture tests alone were enough to make me feel pain lol
&anyw. here's a little teaser for you.
can one/two nuclear bombs exterminate china?
i'm for. junhao's against.

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so, at xiaopang house we were hooked on to a childish but EXTREMELY ADDICTIVE ZOMBIE GAME...
no, not left 4 dead.
BOXHEAD 2 PLAY

its damn fun, esp the part where they built their own 'fortress'

xiaopang left fr tuition, then zhenghou and junjie went to cut their hair
zhenghou cut until fringe change pattern
junjie cut until his slope become question mark shape
?
top like oval, bottom straight
LOL
went over to junhao's house, where he & zhenghou thrashed boxhead out on the computer
i sat at one side reading junhao's book, lol
FAILURE LEH. in one shot i finished the whole book, and read 3/4s of another.
about 45 minutes only ._.
bus-ed home with junjie, later gng out to tour singapore?
from suntec to esplanade to old town
but i still gotta collect my AYG uniform first.
pictures-

whats in the toilet~~~

BOO -.-

lol -.- now my fringe so wispy meh

lousy phone. lousy camera. still can say what 5mpx. zoom also cannot zoom properly.

before,
LOL THE CHERRY

after

my cousin damn cute bodoh, had to stand up to reach his ice cream

cheeseeeeeeeeeee cakeeeeeeeeeeeee

familiar? :x

uh. roar?

k, i'm off now. tcs.